In Love With You Again

I've been working so hard on studies recently.

I don't know why.

I've been feeling bored on my lappy?

I'm sure that you are guessing why the title of this post doesn't fit the body.

In fact,

Yes, I'm in love with my studies all over again.

Forgotten how much happiness I had everytime I studied all chapters.

It does make me so damn happy and relaxed after I forced myself to.

For this long time,

I've been watching movie in no time,

but then, none of these times make me really felt relaxed.

I guess I'm doing something right.

I should do something for myself.

I should live for myself.

Shouldn't just feeling sad for something that pulling us apart.

Forcing we both to do something to change the freaking true facts.

I don't know how come I acted like this.

I just want you to be with me.

You know what?

I'm facing a lot of things.

The only one that I hope to tell, to share, to discuss or maybe to throw it to,

is not with me, though.

It's been awhile I acted like a pessimist.

I felt lost without you.

Always thought why aren't you here?

Always thought you'll always here whenever I need you,

even though I don't need you.

Well, that's alright.

In this tug of war, you have your reason to be the winner.

Just feed our head with all gravels.

Perhaps, it'll let us both feel better.

What to do?

Eventually,

still the same, like normal, like an idiot.

Since I'm The Lucky Number One.

Things went nervous when I knew I am going to be the first one give speech.

I was like...

S.H.I.T.

I started to blame how come my name starts with an A.

I am the 1st one on the list.

--Duh--

How how how?

I am super duper scared !

And so, I made 3 times of practice already.

Wish me luck on Monday.

@#$ I close my eyes, and I can see a better day @#$

%^& I close my eyes and pray %^&

Valentine's Babehs

So unfortunately, all my pictures are with my dear.

Hmm. But I don't wana forget this precious moment.

Even a second.

10.2.2011

I came back from kampar.

Though I always will live at his house for one or 2 days first.

But this time, feel like guilty, so I went home first.

But then it was "Ti Kong Tua"

Hong's family is having some praying ceremony.

So, I followed.

And I know, it would be late.

Then, I bring my own clothes there too.

But *shhhhh no one knows I was purposely*.

Hahaha

Anyway, it comes to helping his mom this and that until the clock ticks to 12am.

Everybody is playing fireworks,

and so are we =)

Well,

let's back to the point.

This is when my dearest husband dragged me to his room

=D

Oops, nothing happen, think straight please

=D

What happened was, he opened his closet and take out a box.

Which was wrapped with beautiful wrappings,

pink in colour, cute bears and butterflies on it.

Aww.. I knew it..

He will remember.

But don't you think this is too much earlier?? I asked him.

I can't wait to see you smile already. That's what he told me while he was smiling.

How can I not to happy?

I quickly jumped to his bed, lying my chest on a pillow

and try to maintain the mysterious feel and thoughts.

What's inside the box, actually?

I shook the box, trying to guess depends on the sound from the box.

No sound.

Weight it with my hands trying to feel it's weight.

So light...

What could it be?

And then, ahhh..

I couldn't wait anymore.

So, I broke the mysterious scenario.

Started to tear the tapes one by one not to cause any damage on the wrappers.

.

.

.

.

.

.

.

Ta-Dah !!!

It's an anti-scratch, steel made, and a very light WATCH.

*I put it in pink, because my mood is pink! *

Oh gosh !

I like it so much, dear !

How much you spent?

Where did you get those money?

When did you buy it? How could I didn't notice?

Oh god oh god...

I have too many questions !

So, do you like it? He asked and touched my dry hair.

I nodded so happily and touched his lips with mine.

Dear, you're wonderful, I seriously in love with this watch

which, I didn't wear something with brands before.

Though this is not what famous one,

but I know, you must have chose for a long time

calculating your budgets, figuring my style and so on..

Thanks dear,

I really appreciate =)

14.2.11

This is what every couple is waiting for.

Hong came to my house early in the morning,

knocking an unanswered door.

Kept ringing an unanswered phone.

Gosh.

The pig is still in her dream !

Don't know why, a strange feeling just woke me up.

I jump-start myself and ran out to reach the door.

Dear was already walking in from my gate.

SO SO SO SORRY !

It's already 11++.

I'm on it I'm on it.

Give me 10mins to bath !

Shaahh Shuuhuu

!@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*(!@#$%^&*

Finally done.

Let's go !

Which car you driving here?

Wira.

Haha, I told you your mom wouldn't let you drive Vios.

While I was looking for Wira,

dear was heading to a Vios.

Wei ~ Bluff me ah huh?

Blek @#$%

So, we went to INTI for herbalife.

Afterwards,

straight to Queens.

Nothing special actually,

just like most of the couples do.

We watched movie, we walked, we talked, we got massage on the rest and go Gintell seats

Capturing pictures.

And, dinner time !

So, dear, what's the plan next?

Uhm. What plan?

Huh??? Don't tell me you didn't plan anything for Valentines' dinner?!

Shit, you really didn't plan

=(

I plan then.

But all romantic restaurants was fully-booked.

We have nowhere to go.

And then my dear kept saying sorry, stupidly ~

Eventually,

we still ended up in a Japanese restaurant at P.Tikus.

It's delicious though.

Delighted our mood back.

If not, hmm wuwu, Valentine's gotta be wasted.

Thought it was not special to outsiders,

and to me, I thought it wasn't,too, at first.

But in fact, it was.

We smiled, we laughed, we did stupid things.

We are happy

=D

Dear, I'm sorry I've ever did something that hurt you.

I swear I will change. Sorry.

I love you, I always will.

This was last year Valentine's picture.

Update later after I got my pictures back

*winks*

Still Better to Be Alone

Today, as usual, they didn't show up to any lectures.
I started to suspect are they what I want for?
A crazy gang is great sometimes, when they're really crazy.

Though, overdose of drugs could actually cause fatal in your future.

We know that, obviously.

SO,

It's actually we're not in the same path or what?

We seem different all the way.

Recently, you guys seemed like boycotting someone.

And this 'someone' seemed like having a quite good relationship with me

*this is what you guys thought only.
I was really afraid that you guys will also group me as one of his.

Whatever ...

I seriously understand that something really cannot be forced to be.

I don't know what to say cause you guys are not telling me what you thought too.

Maybe this was all my crazy thoughts.

But feelings sometimes are true.

I do feel some distance between us already.

Anyway.

Thanks for the craziest memory I'd ever had in UTAR.

I think I'd better concentrate on my studies =)

And Sue,
I really hoped we could be best friends.

Hmph.

What I can say is just that

"Princess and Pauper could never be friends"

Forcing myself to live in a royal family is kinda hard for me.

From today onwards,

I'd rather be myself,

living pauper, feeling well.

It's Been A Tension

What does college life always meant to you?

I don't know what it is to you.

But to me, apparently it looks like you can do whatever you want.

And of course, without worries.

But it turns out that, I felt really stress out here.

Leaving alone doesn't mean freedom at all.

Although I am totally free, but I have no where to go out here in a village like hell.

So what's the point being free at home only?

I'm being sad lately,

except when there are several holidays going on

like CNY, Thaipusam, Nabi Muhammad's birthday.

Cause, I can fly back Penang to see my darling, that's where I belong to,

and where I found myself.

Things always get crossed.

Assignment period has come to my feet.

I may not enjoying this 5-days holidays well.

At least, I gotta prepare my public speaking speech.

It's completely a depressing issue to me.

I always hated to face stage fright I would give myself lots and lots o

f pressures until I burst out.

Haiz.

If and only if I have excellent English, I wouldn't have worrying all these.

It makes me look like an idiot jumping around this little public speaking

which,

I will often face it in the future even though in work.

What's the point of being nervous?

Everybody gets nervous all the time.

Those who has weaker English can also stand on the stage.

I realised, they are learning.

They are not ashame of what they have right now,

in fact,

they are proud of what they are learning right now.

At least, in the future, far far away from now,

they will be definitely better than now.

So. Add oil, girl.

You know,

there are many peoples waiting for you to achieve your goals.

and you know,

there is still somebody that really cares about you.

*Big smile to myself =D