<p>Writing this last just for you, to be clear. <br>
I don't love you because I don't matter you<br>
I don't love you because you live like a cockroach and I hate cockroach the most<br>
I don't love you because you simply yell at me<br>
I don't love you because you yell me CIBAI out of nothing <br>
I don't love you because you treat me nothing even game is important than me<br>
I don't love you because you think I am okay all the time<br>
I don't love you because you smell weird<br>
I don't love you because you act like an uncle<br>
I don't love you because you won't tell me what happen to you<br>
I don't love you because you owe people a lot of money and you didn't tell me<br>
I don't love you because you argue everything with me
I don't love you because we never talked even in the same room
I don't love you because you left me alone after you shouted at me and never think it's its your fault
I don't love you because you say you love me but you didn't kiss me
I don't love you because you said i spent your money but you never buy me a thing
I don't love you because you don't buy me a present even on my birthday
I don't love you because you treat me like a kid that you don't listen to me
I don't love you because you give me that scary eye.
I don't love you because you were wrong but you never think you're sorry even after we broke up
I don't love you because of your irresponsible - you don't pay rental and electric water bills until you're chased out by the owner and water and electricity cut down
I don't love you because you always act like you're rich but in fact you borrow a lot
I don't love you because you lied to me
I don't love because you never keep your promise
I don't love you because treated me as your last choice
I don't love you because i accepted you out of so many girls you were chasing at the same time and that mean you weren't really love me at the first place
I don't love you because you embarrassed me in front of so many ppl
I don't love you because you don't respect me
I don't love you because you never bring me somewhere just because of me, anywhere we went was always because of somebody is going then we follow
I don't love yo because you acted very 大男人
I don't love you because you didn't show me some respect
I don't love you because you think I'll forgive you overtime you did wrong and so you keep on repeating
This Is How I Live My Life
It's only when we truly know and understand that we have a limited time on earth -- and that we have no way of knowing when our own time is up -- that we will begin to live each day to the fullest, as if it was the only one we had.
Wednesday, August 1, 2012
I Don't Love You
Friends. Oh yaa?!
Couldn't find a best word to describe how I feel right now.
Frustrated? Upset? Hopeless?
I always wanted to ask WHY!
Why are you all being so cruel?
You knew me well
And I thought I knew you well too.
Have I ever overestimated you?
You were my best friend, my non-bloodline brother, that I once make you one.
You knew the whole story
You knew I was not happy with him afterall.
I found my happiness now, but why did you ever turned your back to me?
Why why why..
You know, you broke my heart.
Thanks to you, i am not happy anymore
No matter how hard I tried to make us happy;
Ignored what have you guys gossipped around.
Trying so hard to find the balance
Holding faith that things will go through;
You guys should be chuckled around and feel so good that you guys were all teamed up. You earned the victory.
How freaking proud of yourself that you lose me but you earned the whole armies.
Please don't make me remember you this way.
I will not forgive you forever.
I did wrong too, I know.
I apologized.
What I can do has already been done.
Even I've been trying to pay back my mistakes; it still seems constant.
So much of heartbroken already.
One day, I will have to stand for myself; Even no one is standing for me.
I know this day will come.
I just need a little more rest to recover.
We just need a little more time.
Mr Chong, so sorry I caught you into this unpleasant trap.
So sorry we fell in love to each other was a mistake in the others' eyes.
So sorry we do not have an ordinary startup page; there are obstacles all around since Day 1.
Though, sincerely, nothing is better than cuddling around you by my side;
Nothing can make me happier to see you laugh like a kid even we are going thru a very hard time.
I just hope everything goes well between us.
We can't control externally but I hope we do manage well internally.
Fuck off all bastards!
Sunday, July 8, 2012
Please Step Away
Did you really love me?
Did you really treat me as something?
If you did, how come I never felt so?
I am not stupid, I am not either something smart.
I just always wanted you to look into my eyes, hold my hands in my sleep, tell me how much you love me and bring me far far away.
Unfortunately, you never made me feel any of it.
Maybe you did hold my hands, but it's in your sleep.
Maybe you'll say you love me, but it's me that forcing.
Time goes on...
Even you don't hold my hands anymore
Even you don't say you love me anymore
You started to shout at me.
It's ok. You have your temper. I have one too.
And then you started to throw bad words to me, in a really bad way.
I didn't know how long I can hold on.
Thousand of chances have been given, but you made no changes..
That's when a lady will walk away with disappointment.
Speaking of, your attitude was the most terrible one.
I don't know exposing your attitude is or not a bad one
Since you've been faking things out.
I think I'd rather do something sincere.
You owe me a debt.
You owe my housemate too.
And then you owe your close friends;
But you seem so rich to your other new friends.
Fetching people around, treating drinks around, but you couldn't afford to return the debt you owed.
What the heck?!
Please la, don't make me even felt so proud to leave you.
You just make me feel nasty that you even acted so pity that I dumbed you. I was the victim.
You should have paid back before you say you're pity.
What kind of guy are you?
Don't make me felt so bad that I even chosen you before.
I don't know whether you intend to influence my friends or not
But I can see a difference from my friends
I tell y'all here, it's been a disappointment that you're infected.
I felt sadness, but i even felt so lucky that I am aware my friends aren't true friends.
So, I will never ever put my efforts anymore.
If there's once, there will be twice.
Why should I suffer myself when i'm already wounds-surrounded?
Please, everyone, step away if you don't like me.
Monday, July 2, 2012
It's Tough
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
It's A Tragedy, for me
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
PTPTN Released
Monday, June 18, 2012
All Of A Sudden
And then i'm just gonna accept what is destined to be
When I look into your eyes, I saw my own reflection
It is not about only my reflection
I saw myself in it
I knew I am that much to you.
I knew you were looking at me differently
I truly felt that.
The importance of myself that you sacrificed so much.
I hope i'm not silly this time.
I hope I am not making a wrong decision.
Despite of making this wrong decision,
I just don't know why I felt it's totally a right thing to do.
What could be better than making this wrong decision?
I chuckled by myself all the time, when I look at you
And then you smiled.
Asking me why am I being so funny..
"Because there is you in my life right now"
All of a sudden,
from friend to best friend
from best friend to intimate.
from intimate to...
I can't believe what are we right now.
I call this a chain process.
Step by step, heart to heart.
*I know I am being gross. haha
We always say,
"You were my intimate..I can't believe what is happening now"
Only if you see and I see, then we'll know why are these happening
Everything goes so smooth between us.
You delighted my life.
This is the first time I told myself
I deserved these.
I deserved you.
*PEACE :P