You were...

You were once a while the guy that will always be there for me...

I made the choice

and I lose you.

I was creating these.

I should be blamed.

Sometimes I felt guilty,

Sometimes I gone sad and regret.

But, you ain't gonna be there for me anymore.

I should have known this better than everything.

Perhaps, I knew it.

I just don't know what happen to me, actually.

I am being stubborn.

Too stubborn that I thought what I chose was the right choice.

Was what I want.

The moment you moved on

I feel ache inside.

You never gonna be there for me anymore

You never gonna look at me anymore.

I, will disappear forever, to you.

I thought you'd waited like forever for me.

hmm.

I was being too confident.

Hoping, still, you will.

I stunned, for like a few mins,

everytime I view your wall.

Wondering....

wondering...

and think.

Uncertainties.

Unknowns.

I left because of unknowns.

I've put you on the table as the stake of the game.

Roulette? Perhaps.

36 possibilities plus 0 as 37 possibilities.

It's spinning, still.

But I lost my stake before I get to know the result.

I've underestimated my stake.

They just won't wait until the end of the game.

I am being ridiculous, being selfish, being unbelievable

Why do I feel sadness when you walk away?

I don't want you to leave.

I don't want you to stay, for the sake of your future...

Haizz

You were once a while the guy that I called in the middle of the night

and you would come for me whenever it is

You were always one.

I am just too afraid of the realities

that I let go of love.

Wish you were here.