Goodbye. Farewell.

Just ended what I've been so protecting once upon a time.

Never felt regret as I think it's the only choice that I could make.

I didn't end it so irresponsible,

Instead,

We talked.

We discussed.

After all,

We can still be friend.

I think this is the macho part.

Where we still can be best friend.

I'm not gonna say

"Let's broke up, because I don't love you anymore"

That's super irresponsible.

What actually surprised me was,

I didn't cry.

I didn't respond when he says "I love you"

I can't feel a thing

*Sorry*

Maybe, it's really time,

it's what that should be done right now.

He acted sad at first.

He begged.

And then,

He laughed, starting to understand.

Perhaps, he might felt the same way I felt

We were just not suitable anymore

Being together will just suffer both of us.

I am glad, and pleasant

cause he finally actually understand the statement

I need not explain and explain again as usual

which is really annoying.

I found that he is sexy when he acted like a macho guy.

He says "Can we still be friend?"

"Are we still going to talk?"

I smiled.

"Of course we will."

All that ever held me back was always his family.

They were really like my family

and I really don't feel happy losing a family,

where I actually cherish, and appreciate.

I never wanted to lose them.

But, there's nothing I can do.

I can never be like going to their house and celebrate every events anymore.

Never going for road trips anymore.

Never be invited to any party anymore.

Yea, that's what that holding me back.

I don't want to lose them.

Still,

Everything follows.

I lost them, like forever.