Friends. Oh yaa?!

Couldn't find a best word to describe how I feel right now.
Frustrated? Upset? Hopeless?

I always wanted to ask WHY!

Why are you all being so cruel?
You knew me well
And I thought I knew you well too.
Have I ever overestimated you?
You were my best friend, my non-bloodline brother, that I once make you one.
You knew the whole story
You knew I was not happy with him afterall.
I found my happiness now, but why did you ever turned your back to me?
Why why why..

You know, you broke my heart.
Thanks to you, i am not happy anymore

No matter how hard I tried to make us happy;
Ignored what have you guys gossipped around.
Trying so hard to find the balance
Holding faith that things will go through;

You guys should be chuckled around and feel so good that you guys were all teamed up. You earned the victory.
How freaking proud of yourself that you lose me but you earned the whole armies.

Please don't make me remember you this way.
I will not forgive you forever.

I did wrong too, I know.
I apologized.
What I can do has already been done.
Even I've been trying to pay back my mistakes; it still seems constant.
So much of heartbroken already.

One day, I will have to stand for myself; Even no one is standing for me.
I know this day will come.
I just need a little more rest to recover.
We just need a little more time.

Mr Chong, so sorry I caught you into this unpleasant trap.
So sorry we fell in love to each other was a mistake in the others' eyes.
So sorry we do not have an ordinary startup page; there are obstacles all around since Day 1.

Though, sincerely, nothing is better than cuddling around you by my side;
Nothing can make me happier to see you laugh like a kid even we are going thru a very hard time.
I just hope everything goes well between us.
We can't control externally but I hope we do manage well internally.

Fuck off all bastards!