一生的毕业典礼

毕业~

到底毕业给了你什么感觉?
开心呢?
难过?
还是不舍得?

而不舍得,又是在不舍得什么呢?
朋友?
学校?
还是曾经流逝的光阴?
曾经失去的故事?

每个人都有他自己的故事
而每个人也是每个人故事里的过客..

过了今天,
新的故事就会开始
同时
故事里的这一课即将结束

我们常常问朋友毕业过后会去哪里?
而朋友也会倒过来问回你
但大家只会说
不知道

迟些,我们便自然有答案了
有些朋友,出来打工,创世界
而有些,还必须经历教育之苦

但到底..哪一条路才是最好的?

曾经有位即将过世的先生对我说
"选择不是选最好的,而是选择适合自己的"
如今,这位先生过世了..
而这一句话
如今,却刻骨铭心
感谢他在临死前,赠送我这一句话

很多人真的不会选择
所以偶尔会做错决定
别说别人
说我自己
就常常在选择错的决定
后来,便是惹出大麻烦了

所以,这阶段..
才是我们刚刚学习成人的一步

毕业~

不代表永别
但里边的感情却会随之而变

谁知道以后的事?
谁知道十年后的我们
还会不会象今天那么快乐?那么自在?

可能现在的我们真的觉得生活很苦..
那是因为我们从来不知道什么才是真正的苦~
又有另一种说法说不一定...
但,人生就不过如此?
世上哪有绝对?

就算是好朋友,
总有一天
大家也会有不同的想法
随之
感情就淡了
因为我们不再主动去他家里找他..
反正想法都不一致了
不参在一起也无所谓

这就是毕业过后
必须面对的

很多人老了才明白
学校是多么的轻松..
不必愁这愁那
反正有什么事都好
有爸妈去扛~

成了人家的爸妈后才明白这道理
其实就已经很迟很迟了

因为过去就不会再回来
苦,就这样必须扛一辈子了

所以
不舍?
不舍什么?
岁数?时间?

答案自然在你心里

只要珍惜每一天
记录每天的过程,
就算是过客也好
不要忘记他

直到有一天你退休的时候
再把你记录的东西
在一棵大阴树下
一面一面的翻开来读~
看着前面小孩跑来跑去..

那时,
你脑袋又会想到什么呢?

"幸好我有记录每一天"?

-你是否想起自己的过去?

同时
你会清楚看到自己的改变吧?

所以今天的毕业典礼
应该成为你生活的一小部分..
记录了吗?
就算是小部分
也别忘了记录我曾经是你的过客噢~
朋友...

在此祝福你们前程光明~
记住
"不要最好的,而是适合自己的"

Nothing To Say But Just To Wish

hmm...
i went to the car driving license centre yesterday
feels like i'm gonna be a big girl soon
two more months to go
i will be in brand new style

all the past,will forever be my past
all the future will not be expected
so i just gonna wish my life is full of fun

longtime didn't update my blog
cuz i am busy and,i was having nothing to post of
then,
finally,i had something to tell

with my boyfriend,
we went to family dinner yesterday
haha
i was really like admitted already
last night was his brother's wedding night,
but it was not yet a formal one

this kind of dinner also exist of me already,
that's why he said "you are not going anywhere anymore honey"
haha
although it sounds like tying me up
but somehow,i like it much than ever
everybody of his famile started to ask him
"when is you guys' wedding going to be ar"?
haha what a funny stuff..
makes me laugh non-stop

to make matters worse,
hong shook their hands by the entrance after the dinner ended
it was like a formal wedding,the bridegroom and the bride were standing outside thank you-ing everybody
haha

i was then thinking of
"when will this happen to me?"
when hong asked me
"will you marry me?" in his joking mode last night..

though,the night ended so quickly
i was bringing a very hard mood to say good bye
because
i have missed him so much since tuesday we met.

*gonna upload the photos soon*

The Show-Kenta

Good MV,good song to make me feel relax
love it.

Sometimes,Something

Sometimes,something changes so creepily without noticing around you
until we can't even manage to make a move
sometimes,it is benefit to you but sometimes it will be harmful
sometimes,we thought that we hate
but,after sometimes again,we just simply realise that what we hate was just a fool or a joke

something very unexpected happened to me just while ago,
did it happen to you?

this was the first time i get to go through this kind of stuff..
everybody knows about my cruel "post" right? (back-biting)
anyhow,i'm here to say sorry..
even though i knew it was a wrong one,but i still made it
that's what my mistake,sometimes.

but now,it was the past to me and to the person
something really unexpected,
i'm still friend of hers

first time did this without losing a friend
not going to do something pretending,
frankly,she is just so generous...
thought that we could have difficult situation after the post
but she get to put it down.
she accepted?or she will remember the evil of mine forever?

i really wish that she could accept and look into herself
it may be a help to her too

that's why i said,sometimes,something we judged doesn't make any sense
but,it did happened,
everything came to an end,
we are still friend

thank god.

Countdown

It's going to be hard days after today..
one more month to go
i'm sure that everybody is nervous to yr homeworks,revisons..and so on..
right?
by the way,me too
i'm one of us..
spm just driving me crazy
all those quarrels with my mummy also because spm

anyway
nightmare has begun
i mean to me,it has just begun from today onwards
i have made up my mind
i'mma gonna make something responsible to myself
not to act like a child anymore,seriously

remind me,in case i forgotten~
haha you know lar...
i'm just a "kid"
haha

however,
nightmare means

1.switch off your handphones
2.stop blogging
3.stop facebook (it's actually no computer allowed)
4.no dating (at least,he is allowed to accompany me once a week,but just study)
5.no movies

sir/madam,
do you think i can make it?

is my determination still as strong as last time that i used to be?
c'mon
TRUST YOURSELF

emm...
i think i can make it (shaking..)

*whee whit*
that's what hong make me laugh so much
okay now,
hong got a big deal with me
he said if i am good in results,
i will be having secret prizes?cash?or delicious food?
haha
what do you think i will choose?

-

-

-

-

-

i chose through lucky draw..
hahaha

happy to have him..
first time people tell me i can have prizes if i have good results
it's really the first time
my parents didn't do this to me before
cause they thought i am matured enough to gain my own future
but somehow,i still need that..hehe

so,hong make me feel that i needed the prizes so much
haha
it is actually a good power for me to fight for PRIZES and your PROPERTY
hahahaha
you promised..i can have your property...

thanks dear,i love you..*big kisses for you*



thanks for reading my post
all the best to you guys ya..
muakxx....

一段感情是需要两个人来维持的

不断的去争取
不断的去挽回
却一次又一次的失望了
说过要放弃
可是,我怎么放不下手?
你怎会慢慢成为我心里重要的人物?

曾经向你埋怨过
但你没有给我回复
你连看我都没有

以为真的就这样失去你了
可是每次的这个时候
你晚上都会拨电给我
然后
骂我怎么会乱乱想?
其实,我还真的很喜欢你这样骂我

至少我以为的
还不是个事实

你说
你很疼我
所以我每次都会用这个来安慰自己

结果你让我感觉的
不是如此

你的关心,我看不到
为什么不让我看到呢?

我们非要为了他搞到这样吗??

我曾经说过,
我们能不能回到从前?

我想念
从前很疼我的你~

Unexpected

Many things had happened for the past few days..
many things that happened was unexpected
like tomorrow..it will be an extra holiday
although it does release my little pressure..
but side pressure is still here
i have lost somebody because of somebody
how can i make decision where both of them are also important to me?
why do i have to make this type of decision every time huh?
am i deserve to it?

i used to swear to myself that don't choose anybody when it comes to a choose
but then,the pain..
returned to me yesterday
i just get to know
i'm still like the past
everything comes out from my lips still cannot be done
how useless i am

done nothing but with a thought only~ haiz

Shao Lim 2009 Farewell

okay..here we go..
finally it's my FAREWELL
glad to involve
cuz i'm the one who is going to leave the school!
oh God..
i am going to graduate!
hahahahahahaha so so so happy man...

den this is the beginning of the function

she,our teacher..
late to farewell..whole association is waiting for her appearance
and that is 11++am already..
it was supposed to begin at 10.30am..
what a V.I.P man..
anyhow..
we still must RESPECT her right?

hehe

it is our members..
young little kids like we used to be huh?

together in this association for the whole five years in heng ee
best partner ever..

muh.muh.muh.

catering food..looks grand
but nothing inside
how about the cost?
we don't know..
haha
it's free for us..

our trainer..

Form 6 AJK
but so funny..
always play around together with us..
haha
not mature enough huh?
haha

i didn't expect that Gary will take up his camera and took a shot of us by himself
haha
i mean "自拍"
haha
he is kinda milky white..

vice president.
same like me.
we cooperate well.

secretary.
good one.
handle two association's secretary pose.
what the....

there,president and both vice president together
good one too.

little one.
she is just form 2
going to suffer for years some more
bye bye..
heeeeeheee...

black guy..
keep on moving k?
i know you can do it much better.
don't make me disappointed k?
add oil !

BUH-BYE
FRIENDS
MEET Y'ALL IF WE HAVE THE CHANCE TO SIT TOGETHER AGAIN
we've been through much in those years right?
handling all those function
and we used to face everything together no matter it is a fail or succeed right?

so,
actually there are much of memories in Wushu Shao Lim
i'll never forget y'all
thanks for the new ajk too
we have a very fun farewell..

ps:to the new ajk..you guys can make it better,so why don't you guys put more effort on it?
it will success,we know you can....you can make our association much better than after
ALL HOPES ARE WITH Y'ALL
just don't give up
help each other out
ok?
WE WERE THE HISTORY
BUT
YOU ARE THE FUTURE.

wish you guys all the best.....GAMBATEH!

L.E.A.V.E. without R.E.G.R.E.T.

Yee Fei's 17th Birthday

Happy birthday tiny gurl
although today is still not your big day yet
but you will feel so happy with the celebration right?
all of us were in black while you were the special one with white..hehe
okay..first,i was late..i'm sorry..
so i missed the earlier part that there were the other gang who celebrating birthday too

you always be the one who don't know we are capturing picture of you
see?
yr expression..haha

den..this one also..

and er was having here sweet time

me and laopo...
always do such things.
looks like lessbian huh?

hehe laopo
don't blame me for posting this ugly picture of you here
haha
cuz you like to be like this right?
wakakaka..

steam lar xue ni~haha

haha see your eye lashes
FAKE!
haha
it's going to drop man!

it was kinda funny when i saw this haha

laopo..
always having a dreaming-look
dono what were you doing..
having this kind of pose..haha

and so.
we have picture with the other gang
they looked so friendly
and we think,
it is because they are christian..
anyway,make more fren..

there
.
.
we were in black group

then,
i crop us out..
nice right?
haha
like this so much...

first picture of us of the day.

see?
my product..
that's what my serious look made out
haha er said so.
right?
like this so much too
haha

then,
we're out of the place of laughter
cuz "mighty queen" needed to watch her 2.30pm show.
anyhow,
we have photos all the way
until she was so irritating to us
haha
"如果没有电话和 camera,我们早就到ariel家了咯"
she was nagging so.

then.....
CELEBRATION ENDED
simple and easy.
like our birthday gurl.

When Daddy Says

i'm sure that anyone that is close to me and knows me well could probably understand my family's situation..
about my dad..
he is concerned as a bad guy..bad daddy and so on (everybody knows)
i always feel so sad about his attitude
however,
today i'm here not to talk about his dirty stuff

just because one single sentence of him
i was touched..

"Ariel ar..撑多一下子,爸爸就快有钱了,然后你们就可以不用那么辛苦了"
from this sentence
i can really feel many things inside
including the L.O.V.E which i always thought there is no need to talk about love with him
and C.A.R.I.N.G......

i never felt this from him before
maybe got,but that was long long time ago
and i can't even remember

meanwhile,mom added
"yea..she is always worrying that we have no money for her to continue her studies"

this moment,
dad stared into my eyes
i felt what he felt inside
his eyes looked so tired which brought out his age
he is no longer a strong daddy as what he used to be lasttime

and me..
i turn aside..
tears dropped silently without pausing

why i felt so pain inside my heart?
why daddy you love us but you cant show everything out?
why you wana make something hurt to us?
why couldn't we have a happy family like the others do?

you used to be wealthy enough to handle everything
we used to be free from worries
but how come you have turned us into difficulties where you can choose not to?

Daddy,come back...

My Dearest Sister's 21st Birthday @ Tripz

Happy birthday sis..

hehe finally you have came back again..but just for 4 days.
i was so willing to share more time with you,truly
it's just that too many resistant.
anyway..
first day you came back
16.08.09

we went to ama's house..
you are so nervous to ama's pet named jojo

see..you played around with it,running here and there
like a kid
you were willing to bring him home but you were rejected (how pity)
haha

then,we have some capture..
but this is the best..i think.

then i have to attend my damn tuition class.
but before that,we went to shop at tesco
and here..
a sor hai~
haha

our ama..
came to penang to celebrate your 21st birthday wor..
how grand it was
haha you are an adult now
so good~
but me?
still need five years to go..

then..our stupid idiot job again~
captured behind a stranger
haha rmb?haha

after that,you have preparation with ama n mama..
they were busy
and you too
haha i just managed to capture yr cute action
just like this
haha running like flying
haha
you always act so stupid but somehow it's cute and it is YOU

after busy this and that,
you friends have arrived and you,again..became nervous when the weather is not that good
haha
but i just can console you?
telling all lies about "wont rain eh la"
haha
and finally,you have your dress on~
how adorable is she~
she isn't 21st yet,right?haha

however,again
kids look..
going out to ball?
leaving home?haha
no way,you still need to come back

even though,you run like flying haha
(AGAIN)
haha how tambai~

finally,i think the God had touched by you poor little girl
there was no rain and you became so excited
haha invite you friends to the seat
run here and there
and I,your younger sister was in charged in capturing all those moments
cuz you didn't want to forget every second of it right?
haha
i can really felt the happiness in you that night.

anyway,
who is the one that you should appreciate the most?
of course our dearest MUMMY lar
see..she was on beautiful look too
but she sacrificed her time in return to make yr birthday party success and she just wanted to see you smile
how touch of it..right?
she is the most MIGHTY woman and mom to us,
forever and ever~

your friends..

but you looked so tiny in between haha
like a hamster in between a loaf of bread haha

i truly like all those pictures below..
everybody was happy~
haha
"longtime no see, fren" right?

Daddy came too
everybody came together for yr grand party~

mummy loves you

we love you

they love you too~

i was happy!
that's why i drank a tin of it.......haha
but i was drunk then..

happy party still needs an end..
you have gain so many present,happy leh..

but see?
all of us so envy leh
give us some of it lar...
you cannot be so selfish one~

is it because we wanted some of your present from you
so you became nervous,once again??
in love with the gigantic plastice bag?
haha
this is who you are...
FUNNY,NERVOUS,and HAPPY always

the next day
17.08.09

we went together to KO EN
haha
who is the one behind??
look so "gina" lar..haha

there was nothing fun besides joking around with all those idiot jokes haha
and..now..
17.08.09 11.59pm..
one more minute heading to your real birthday

but..there was an ACCIDENT
just like wat you said in your blog..haha
anyhow,
i feel so romantic in you both
he tried to make you surprise where he is not the type of romantic
how adorable are you both
there is still love inside you both
at least..
he is willing to be side of you,
right?hehe

it still looked delicious
"men kia"
haha

see?
how sweet..
aww..
accompany you till midnight wor..

but..you didn't look appreciate~
hiuz..
broken romantic~haha
jk lar

looked so stupid
but he loves you deep inside his heart

24 more hours,you are going back to JB
sien leh...
treasure the kiss o..haha

18.08.09

FINALLY
you are going home now~
see..how bu she de..
still wana capture this and that..
anyway..
there is still time for you to come home lar
the other side of my bed is always waiting for you to warm it
haha
come back whenever you feel tired ya
we will always be here~

ps:hey sis..i have used up 3 hours to complete this blog you know?sit until my buttock also become stone d haha..anyway

i'mma always wish you happy and willing to see you smile with shine~
be tough ya

LOVE YOU..