Confused

Recently, I am concerning about my life after this.
Can I make it?
Living by myself out there alone?

Well,
That's not the largest problem yet.
Cause, money is always the problem
So, guess why I am money face?
To save my future, man!
Trying to apply for scholarships everywhere
But, i was too late.
I missed both huge scholarships supplier.
Who asked me to be so lazy?
hmph..
I lost The Star Education and Bank Negara Malaysia's scholarships,
which I could actually get it so easily.

Though, I will be optimistic.
I'm trying for the others.
But, holy shit!
There are no others left!

Only, Hong Leong Bank.
the chances is even lesser.
cause i'm not the account holder of this bank.

Then,
I get to feel so hopeless.
I wish to study at Nottingham,
but none of the supporters.
So, somehow,
I still have to go back to UTAR.

Though, UTAR isn't that bad.
But I don't have my exact course there.
I need Finance & Accounting.
But, Utar only offers either Finance or Accounting.

What am I going to do?
There are lots of pros and cons,
Which I hate to solve.

So, I live the problems alone,
and start to work.
Hoping to get more money for my own living cost.

And now!
I get a job that is rm80 per day.
For just 4 days.
haha

Well,
I won't have to work so tired anymore.
and, I even get more earnings than that rm4.50 per hour-job.
HAHA

Hurr-ay.