Life is full of happiness, yet full of misery.
Shitsss happen all the time
Some might taught you a lesson,
but some might really hurt you deeply.
There's too much uncertainties and too much of surprises that we couldn't cope with
We couldn't even faced it, sometimes.
I was once a very easy-going person.
An extraversion one.
But life changes from time to time.
I don't even recognise myself right now.
Feels like LOST.
Ever since I came to Kampar by myself,
my life has been going to another stage.
Stage by stage changes me, like you'll never noticed.
Until how much I saw myself being so ridiculous handling uncertainties.
So not ready for these.
Like nobody cares.
I laugh like a kid, I cry like a baby and I broke down like I thought I won't.
So much has happened.
Too much I cannot judge.
I thought I know, but it's not what I know
Ends up disappointed
And then sorry, you're totally wrong.
What have I been changed to, actually?
I don't know.
I am just so lost.
And this makes me shoo all my friends away
Even my love ones.
I am so sorry if I ever did anything hurtful to y'all
I am so sorry that I am not being matured enough to protect your feelings
I am so sorry that I spill my words without asking my brain first.
Dear heart, sorry for the damage.
Dear brain, you were right, you should be gone thru first.
*Quotes for the day:
People don't change by saying "I'm sorry"; People change by knowing exactly why they're sorry
Sometimes, sorry isn't enough when you screwed up too much
**I couldn't even find a sad photo from me. I smiled I laughed in every single pictures I had.
Maybe that's the way I live.
I smile to uncertainties, eventually.
Although I know there will still be another break down
That's life, I know.
Learn to live, that's what important**
Good luck to myself.
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