This Is How I Live My Life

New Stuffs Just Like A Whole Bunch of New-Born Petss

2012-01-22T00:47:00.000-08:00

The greatest thing ever is always about receiving/buying new stuffs and you own them wholly

Yes, I get what I want.

Though it's not all of it

But yes, I am delighted

A new year with a lot of new stuffs;

that always make my birthday a very special day.

However, you just gotta appreciate everything throughout the rest of the year;

no matter how bad will it goes.

First of all..

The first present received for my birthday present was from my Mighty Mama :D

A camera that I've always wanted.

Super satisfied cause it has a lot of function such as modes, and scenes.

Mom bought for like RM800 for me.

I know she loves me deep inside..

Thanks mummy :)

Another that impressed me.

By friendssss

Ivan, Sai Chuan, Fatt, Eugene, Alex, Wan Qi, Qiao Ying, and Lucas

Thankssss

I love this real much that I almost want to display them instead of wearing them for some nasty sports. Ha!

You couldn't imagine how much I obsessed with it

The perfect shoes come with a perfect tumbler with my favorite colour

You guys are so perfect;

Knowing that I would need a water tumbler during sports.

And yes, I need to drink more water so that it could also helps in losing weight

--Ivan's philosophy :)

Then here comes a special gift from my sister

Rinako Ooi.

I guess she wishes me to nourish and take good care of my face so much?

And she did give me one simple sentence that surprised me even more.

She just suddenly popped out

"The honey is just too real that I can't resist to lick them from my face"

Guess what?

She really licked them

OH MY GOD OOI XUE NI!

She then said

"And it tastes bitter...!"

*Don't make me faint on the street, pal"

Haha :D

And then I dyed my hair again for new year,

just like what I mentioned on twitter

Follow me, if you haven't

https://twitter.com/#!/ARIEL_YEN

Teeheee..

The colour doesn't look obvious though

But it looks healthy

fit my dry hair lahhh

The following is the bag I love the most, currently

Bought it from Genting during sem break.

I fell in love when I first saw this red squared-shape medium-sized handbag was on display

Ori price: RM129.90

Guess how much I bought after 70% new year discount?

RM40 plus only.

Yay ! It was really a great day !

Even though I just shop alone.

See how much the plum red attracts me.

I just couldn't stop staring at her

Glamorous, is to be described

Ohh ! I haven't updated my break trip yet !

Ahh...

That was so much to talk about and I was too lazy

Sorry..

This is one of the sem break parts

Stay tuned for the others !

*Writing about new stuffs is always the best part throughout the whole blog;

I am smiling all the way writing these*

Teeheee :)

You were...

2012-01-19T09:24:00.000-08:00

You were once a while the guy that will always be there for me...

I made the choice

and I lose you.

I was creating these.

I should be blamed.

Sometimes I felt guilty,

Sometimes I gone sad and regret.

But, you ain't gonna be there for me anymore.

I should have known this better than everything.

Perhaps, I knew it.

I just don't know what happen to me, actually.

I am being stubborn.

Too stubborn that I thought what I chose was the right choice.

Was what I want.

The moment you moved on

I feel ache inside.

You never gonna be there for me anymore

You never gonna look at me anymore.

I, will disappear forever, to you.

I thought you'd waited like forever for me.

hmm.

I was being too confident.

Hoping, still, you will.

I stunned, for like a few mins,

everytime I view your wall.

Wondering....

wondering...

and think.

Uncertainties.

Unknowns.

I left because of unknowns.

I've put you on the table as the stake of the game.

Roulette? Perhaps.

36 possibilities plus 0 as 37 possibilities.

It's spinning, still.

But I lost my stake before I get to know the result.

I've underestimated my stake.

They just won't wait until the end of the game.

I am being ridiculous, being selfish, being unbelievable

Why do I feel sadness when you walk away?

I don't want you to leave.

I don't want you to stay, for the sake of your future...

Haizz

You were once a while the guy that I called in the middle of the night

and you would come for me whenever it is

You were always one.

I am just too afraid of the realities

that I let go of love.

Wish you were here.

My 19th Birthday 2012

2012-01-07T00:12:00.000-08:00

Time flies

I am now 19.

Celebration is a certainty.

I should have known this very very well.

No one would ever got me out of their mind

Right?

Please allow me to be this confident :)

Well

I would really have to say a very big thank you to all of my lovely buddies

You guys made my day.

Though I was thinking I might be playing tetris at home during new year eve

which was always my favorite day throughout the whole tough year

Nevermind,

Tetris battle sounds good for me this year

Don't really feel like gathering around the crowd for that 10 secs countdown.

What surprised me was I have a really silent phone.

No one contacts me at all

Hmmm

Honestly, was kinda upset

Thought you guys been busy about your exams and totally forgot about new year eve,

my 19th blast birthday wor !

Even my darling's phone battery flat and I can't contact him at all too

Haih

What to do?

Stay at home with baby lorr

At the moment,

my phone rang,

Audrey was on the phone

First thought: Birthday celebration

And yea, it is

But I have to drive to her house first :/

Then we're going to Autocity.

Hmmm

My mind was blank and I just went to bathroom and make up myself

Then straight to her house

Someone called on the way..

Xue ni: Your surprised blew off already -_-

What the......

"But still, come to our house first"

-_-

Kinda like down ki lo. :/

Why like that gehhh?!

Nothing special anymore after I reached their house

Just switched car to Autocity

What on my mind was all about CHIA SENG CHONG !

WHERE ARE YOU EXACTLY?!

He was supposed to ride on bus to Penang

and now your phone is dead and I can't found you !

Few minutes later.

Xue ni's phone rang.

She answered and passed to me.

"Hello? How? Fun enough?"

"Huh? Who are you?"

"You know how worry I am?"

"What the fuck ! Why are you answering? OMG"

"Surprised huh?" :/

Not surprised at all darling.

You were freaking me out !

I was just so surprised about who you've brought together with you

Not that I was not happy nor surprise to see you

I was just already expected to see you today

Anyway,

thanks for bringing Eugene and Ivan along.

They really surprised me when I see Eugene's new Persona

that I wouldn't have thought he might drive here

Mr Eugene;

Best friend that helps all the time :)

Mr Ivan;

My best buddy, We used to talk until the sun rises

We had dinner at Swensens

Which was not actually the best choice

but the best of the worst. Hmph

Too many peoples and traffic jam all over autocity

Almost every shops were crowded.

Then, here comes my sista :)

My VIPs;

Airen Jing Jing and Laopo HuiZhen

Miss Er Er;

The best listener

Miss Rinako/Xue Ni;

She prefers Rinako, instead.

The best helper,

she stands up for you whenever you need her :)

Miss Audrey Wee;

The sweetest smile she has :)

Miss Fei Fei;

The tiniest and you will feel like protecting her all the time

Thanks girls, for celebrating with me.

Though nothing actually surprised me

But I appreciate the planned plan that you guys surely spent time out of your busy moment

I had fun.

Thanks to all.

May you all have a happy and lucky new year :D

Tiny Rabbit

2012-01-01T08:10:00.001-08:00

Hello baby boy :)

Welcome to this wonderful, yet miraculous world

Do you know how much you've been blessed to come to this world?

So many peoples were waiting for your appearance.

Busy buying your stuffs,

Everybody was so excited !

And finally,

after 10months of carrying you in your mummy's womb,

your mummy's been suffering from food-allure

and

You've finally came out.

~First day back home~

See your mummy

So worry about you.

Don't you cry so much kays?

She is so new to this.

She gets so out of control whenever you start to cry.

And now your daddy's turn.

You can actually see that he is so tired lor.

As I know your daddy,

he's like the kind of man that wouldn't stay beside you and 'tam' you geh

Yea, proved me wrong !

He damn sayang you and your mummy :)

Always scold her for being too worry about you and not taking good care of herself

Awww...

So touch to see a new start up family

You know what?

You're just too cute that I feel like wanna hug you so tight in my arms

but you're just too tiny and fragile that I almost get myself a heart attack

but it's okay,

you will still be loved by your Auntie Ariel

Awww can't wait to hear you call me Aunty !

Baby..

You just have to grow normal and healthy yea.

<3 Love you <3

Another Fight

2011-12-26T23:25:00.000-08:00

Why do we have to fight like this every time?

I started the fight actually.

I am always the fire matcher.

Is it really my problem?

This isn't what I want.

It's still the same.

I asked for too much.

What is it on earth so hard for you guys to treat a lady like a lady?

I just want you to be more attentive

to care more about me.

Every time you say you love me

I really hope you mean it.

Cause you would throw me a glance like you're going to kill me.

It's scary.

You really freaked me out

Do you know that?

Maybe I was really wrong,

but you acted like I murdered your whole family.

Why?

It's hurt, I know

I get mad every time you get mad.

I follow.

I would have talk like crazy with sharp knife on my words

and stab your heart accidentally that I wouldn't know how much it really hurts.

I was just like this since forever, and I don't know why.

I am sorry.

Thousand apologies.

I repeated my mistake, as usual

Why am I always trying to protect but instead, I hurt somebody else that I care?

Am I really being childish that I can't control myself?

I just want your eyes to be on me.

I just wanted to be like a baby princess being held in the arms like a pearl

Yes, treat me like a precious pearl

And, yes, I think I am worth to be a pearl.

Every time you say you did a lot of things for me,

sorry, I can't see anything.

Define a lot please.

I tidied your house almost every day

I prepare drinking water every day just to keep you away from thirst

I buy fruits, cut, and even feed you with it

I hang your clothes every day

even I am in real tired mode

But you bring back sands every day

Throw your clothes all around the floor that I have to pick them up one by one

Turn on your computer and play the football game everyday

Playing with your 'turbo sports car'

and then you will remind me to full body massage you.

Sorry that I nag so much

Sorry that I complain so much

and sorry

I don't know what you actually done for me.

You would say

I bring you to breakfast, lunch, and dinner every day

I bring you to movie, club, KL, and every where

What else?

Sorry, I can just remember these.

Do you remember that day you went to the mini market for like 15 mins plus.

I waited for you in the car

and you showed up with a big plastic bag after 15mins plus

you said

"See what I bought for you !"

And then you started taking things out from the plastic bag one by one

"I bought you some biscuits, bread for your breakfast"

"A very big bottle of family use body shampoo"

"Toothpaste ! Remember we didn't brush for 2 days, Oh no ! Haha"

"And owh, herbal tea, to boost your every day"

Do you know how sweet you were?

I was just going to say how much I love you

and how much you are worth for my love

This is simple

This is just what I want every day

It just simply define "I did a lot of things for you"

Please, don't we quarrel anymore.

曲终人散

2011-12-24T17:36:00.000-08:00

两个月多了

我们是真的分开了

虽然心里一直都在想你

但是我清楚知道我们不可能了

虽然，也总是觉得在未来的日子里

我们也许还有机会

但是这个想法确实会伤害我们三个

要是我一直这样下去

我不会真正爱他

我也永远戒不掉对你的习惯

这样，

对你们都很不公平

我知道

我凭什么来拖着你们两个？

这两个月里

我几乎每天都在想

我这样的选择到底是对错

今天

我终于要对自己说

既然都做了决定就不应该后悔

不应该再犹豫了

大不了两个都不要

我不应该再想你了

不应该再常常把你挂在嘴边

不应该拿你出来做比较

我已经没有再依恋的借口

那一刻，我转身的时候

就不应该想再一次拉住你的手

那天，你的脸有几分憔悴

你的眼有残留的泪

我不会忘了

因为那是我造成的

要是我真的爱你，

就不该象过去那样用双手紧紧把你环绕

放你走

让你找到比我更适合你的

让你不再为我流泪

让另一个她把你遗失的笑容找回

曾经幸福的，痛苦的

该你的，该我的

到此一笔勾销

我是真的希望

你可以再一次

幸福的，开心的

对着我，笑...

我不会忘了我们曾经一起拥有的回忆

你永远会在我心底...

Fear from the Bottom of My Heart

2011-12-16T09:28:00.000-08:00

I just don't know why.

You are now drinking.

I am supposed to believe in you.

But I am scared.

I don't trust you.

In other words, I don't trust those alcohols.

You were so drunk when I last saw you drinking with your cousins.

I don't know why guys life should be this way.

Drinking is like everything to y'all.

You knew you would do anything when you were drunk.

And, you would never know when you are going to be drunk.

You just gonna keep drinking until you don't know what you're doing.

How can I trust you?

I don't know why.

I feel like crying right now.

Tears filled my eyes.

I shouldn't be this skeptical.

If I keep being like this,

in the end you'll just gonna throw me away.

I just don't feel safe at all.

Seriously,

I hope you wouldn't hide anything from me.

But on the other hand,

I don't know how much I can take it.

My heart is soring.

I am not okay.

I cannot stop imagine the picture of you drinking with girls around.

I am so being a worried pity wife here.

And I super hate myself being like this.

Why?

I am worry, yea.

I am not feeling safe.

So?

I can't tell you.

I don't want to be a frightened little girl in front of you.

In fact, I am.

And I am pretending,

which suffer really a lot.

I don't know how to reply your message.

Cause you are acting like

"I am busy drinking, talk fast"

I was just gonna say,

"Please don't take any drugs, and be careful"

Do you know how hurt it is when your cousin asked you inside

and you just gonna cut the line immediately.

I was imagining, you're rushing back inside to sexy girls.

I know you would say

"Please don't think too much, please"

"Yes, I think a lot, that is because you didn't make me trust you"

Maybe yea, you love me,

but you'll just gonna do some mistake

How do you think those affairs come from?

You always show up in discos every time I am not with you

What's the problem actually?

Why so desperate?

You can say no if you want.

Remember:

"There's nothing about can or cannot, it's about you want it or not"

Frankly speaking

I am not trusting you.

Sorry.

Tetris Fight

2011-12-10T01:50:00.000-08:00

It's funny .

We fight over tetris.

I don't know how it started.

But we just started to yell each other during the battle.

Maybe I randomly said something offended you

But I didn't mean it.

It's just a game !

Win or lose, so WHAT?

Are there any prizes?

That's what I'm gonna say.

I don't know why you felt like offended.

You just shouldn't be so rude to me.

I'll never forgot how the words came out from your lips.

It hurts.

The Gap 1822

2011-12-01T06:41:00.000-08:00

How do I actually have to start this post.

I don't know.

I feel down.

We talked so many times.

Conclusion : We're not on the same side

You are way too matured.

I am the opposition.

Although I don't look like really 18.

But, somehow, I actually can be like 20.

Still, not 22.

Still, middle of 4 years.

Age gap. The severe problem of us.

Although you are 22. But you, too, don't look like one.

You are just more than that.

You always think I am naive.

You always think everything I do is a mistake.

You always try to correct me.

And these, made me feel so... *I can't find a word*

You are looking down at me.

and you know, I don't like it.

Anyway, you're right.

I am still in the life I used to live with.

Life with Hong.

Life like how he agreed everything I commented.

Agreed everything I was about to do.

It can't be denied that, he was a good supporter of mine.

I was too attached with this feeling.

I like to be hoped.

Like anything happen, I am the one that gonna solve things calmly.

I know, this is stress !

I complained before.

And now, I don't know why, I complain again.

Duh.

Why does life has to be this complicated?

I tried to explain how I really think about.

You just have your own opinion.

I just think you should have guided me.

You went thru this phase.

Maybe you should give in a little to me.

You should treat me like you used to be.

You know what?

I felt offended when you said,

"Hong has spoiled you, you'll never grow up if I spoil you like he did"

WTF?!

Spoil?

I doubt.

It was how sweet and you did not know a thing.

C'mon. He was just being caring.

Maybe we're just not in the same phase but you shouldn't say like this.

Everybody has their different kind of method to show love.

Everything we did for love is not considered a mistake.

It's what we did with feelings.

Maybe you will deny this sentence again

I guess you will say

"Feelings without rational is still not considered a thing"

"You should have thought wisely"

"You never know why when you're not at my phase even I explained hard"

I am thinking these problems.

Are we too fast.

There are these thoughts from friends

"Nothing about fast or not, just follow your feelings"

"Feelings always make the start"

"We're still young, why consider so much?"

Haih.

See?

This is what will happen when you did not consider.

What should I do now.

Feeling says : Don't leave him, you have feelings.

Rational says : You should take a break before you start a new relationship. Clear your minds before you gonna add in something new. At least your mind wouldn't be messed up.

Haih......

Sungkai Hot Spring

2011-11-28T08:37:00.000-08:00

It was really a very wonderful trip I had today.

The most memorable day in Kampar.

Never thought Kampar wouldn't be this boring.

Credits to 承宗哥 !

*Damn er xin right?*

My life would never be this fun if I never met you.

But too bad, I don't have a proper camera

and again, I missed all those fun parts.

Seriously,

camera needed.

Anyway, I still got some before we left.

Then it would be all about my description of the whole trip.

We started our journey @ 4.30pm

with eggs and everything readied.

Please don't be curious about the eggs.

It was the funniest part of the whole trip! :D

Then it started to rain along our journey.

First thought in our mind

"We'll never gonna have fun today"

Problems:

1. Public holiday wor, got open or not ehhh?

2. Raining wor, still can let us get in or not? :S

"Cham lar ! Traffic jam some more!"

WTF!

We were so like disappointed when the rain never got lighter as we got nearer

We prayed, so hard.

And ta-daaa !

We arrived at 6.15pm

*Imagine how long have we stucked in the car*

Still, non-stop raining :S

BUT, tickets are still on sale !

Ha ha !

Everything worth back !

The environment was really so relaxing.

I almost fell in love and almost gonna stay there forever.

*exaggerating, as that was really AWESOME*

The spring was really heating, my skin burned

Not actually burned,

It just turned pink !

It was like about 40-50 celcius degree

Took us a few mins to finally get into the pool

Seriously, you don't wanna get out of the pool if you don't feel dizzy.

Soothing enough for you to actually sleep inside the pool

Pros and cons,

Once there's Malays, there will be nothing about cleanliness.

Hmph !

Nevermind, we leave them aside will do.

Don't get affected by them.

You still need to get into the pool

Awww !

Now, the eggs part.

Guess what have we done to the eggs?

20 eggs brought, by the way :D

Ohh, and kicap brought too !

Ans: Boil eggs in the spring :)

2mins -- 1/4 boiled eggs

3-mins -- Half boiled eggs

5-7mins -- Full boiled eggs

They were just so tasty !

Nothing ordinary like we usually boil the eggs.

Feel like going back d

*Slurp* ;P

We stood there for quite a while,

Busy cracking those eggs slowly and carefully

Don't wanna waste any of the eggs.

20 eggs for 5 persons.

It was just enough.

I swear we will bring more during our next visit :D

--- 8pm ++ ---

Time to go home.

Ivan lost his slippers !

One of his slippers actually.

Don't know which sor hai took only one of his slippers

Bodoh..

He borrowed mine.

And that's what made me laugh like hell !

See what it looked like....

Hahahahahahaahahahahaha !

"Nger nger fit in !"

Next funniest point.

Awww...

Laurance so pity, he can't get to sleep

Reason : "I scared if I fell asleep, I would have kissed him, and it looks so gay !"

Hahahahaha

End of the day,

end of the trip.

Looking forward for our next trip

Cameron Highlands :D

"Your existence, my source of happiness"

To-Buy List

2011-11-17T08:12:00.000-08:00

So many things I wish to buy.

So much money needed to be saved.

Should really seek for more part time jobs already.

Should save more money to my Maybank account already.

Hmph !

To-buy list:

1. CAMERA

- I don't wanna missed any more minutes of my uni life.

2. SPORT SHOES

-Going so much for badminton recently, should really buy a proper shoes instead of my super hard CONVERSE shoes.

3. SPORT SUITES

-Since going so much for sports, nicer and proper wear is needed as well.

4. Bras

- It's weird to have this on the list, but I really wanted to have a few more sexy bras in my closet :D

5. Iphone

- The toughest task to achieve. But still will give a try

6. Tint Film for Fat Lady

- Gonna stick something to protect my skin on my fat lady (Waja)

These are what on my mind for now only

I think there are still a few things to be listed.

Can't remember.

Of course, I kinda hope I do not have to buy all these by myself?

Haha

Looking for sponsors.

Half of the price also 'kill' !

Haha

You Are The Reason

2011-11-15T18:13:00.000-08:00

I think this is gonna be a new relationship.

It's fast, I know.

But, who can resist when it comes to feelings.

We always defeated by feelings.

Feelings always drag us along our life.

It's fact.

I know it might seem weird,

or might be inappropriate to the others

As I just ended one, and started another within 1-2 weeks.

Don't ask me why, don't ask me how.

It just came.

He just appears.

Perhaps, I was seeking someone to accompany?

But who knows?

Days passed, another month is coming soon

I am about to fall in love,

To him.

A surprising sentence just dropped off from my lips this morning.

I told him

"I love you"

and I pressed my lips on his.

I smiled as usual, with feelings, of course.

I surprised him, like myself surprised.

I smiled, still.

Looking into his eyes.

Wondering my words.

My responsibility to the sentence.

Are they true?

He was asking the same question.

I stunned.

It might be true.

It might be a feeling-drag

I am not sure.

But I felt sweetness from the bottom of my heart.

I feel happiness, that has been long lost.

I feel like not anymore alone.

Protected by some kind of unseen objects.

You are the reason why I felt these.

You are the reason why I like this feeling being together with you.

I feel so secured being with you.

I do not have to face so many things by myself anymore.

As long as I have you to help me solve my thousands problems.

You are just so capable in sharing all my thoughts.

This is the life I actually wanted like forever.

Find a guy that he loves you, you love him.

And he gives future, he gives secured promises.

The most important,

He is capable in giving you a happy, and a safe family.

All of these might be my own hallucination

Might be what I build up myself

as I wanted these so badly.

I almost hope myself to drown inside

I almost wanted to say

"I love you"

every time you kissed me.

Though, it's not time yet.

You said,

"I felt like poisoned by you already"

Then I replied,

"Don't worry, I am the antidote, I won't let you die nor leave me"

All I can ever do

2011-11-08T07:06:00.000-08:00

Late night.

Mask-ing.

Wondering.

What are you doing?

Wondering.

I called.

You picked.

You were just so different.

You were just so happy.

You were just like nothing happened.

You lived your life.

I tell myself.

"Nevermind, I'll get used to it"

I...

Just not anymore in you.

You are on your own

and so do I.

All I can ever do,

let you go,

let you live your life,

never bother,

never, anymore.

As long as

2011-11-08T05:09:00.000-08:00

Never thought I would still care.

Saw your pictures.

Saw how happy you were.

Kinda hope I was with you.

Kinda like wanna stand beside you.

I don't know what's wrong.

But I know, you do it on purpose.

And I admit, the post I wrote, was a bit on purpose too.

Seriously,

I felt like wanna smell you all over again.

Anyway,

As long as you are really happy.

As long as you can get over me.

As long as,

You were the one I loved before.

And

As long as,

I was also the one you loved so much.

I miss you.

Goodbye. Farewell.

2011-10-29T10:58:00.000-07:00

Just ended what I've been so protecting once upon a time.

Never felt regret as I think it's the only choice that I could make.

I didn't end it so irresponsible,

Instead,

We talked.

We discussed.

After all,

We can still be friend.

I think this is the macho part.

Where we still can be best friend.

I'm not gonna say

"Let's broke up, because I don't love you anymore"

That's super irresponsible.

What actually surprised me was,

I didn't cry.

I didn't respond when he says "I love you"

I can't feel a thing

*Sorry*

Maybe, it's really time,

it's what that should be done right now.

He acted sad at first.

He begged.

And then,

He laughed, starting to understand.

Perhaps, he might felt the same way I felt

We were just not suitable anymore

Being together will just suffer both of us.

I am glad, and pleasant

cause he finally actually understand the statement

I need not explain and explain again as usual

which is really annoying.

I found that he is sexy when he acted like a macho guy.

He says "Can we still be friend?"

"Are we still going to talk?"

I smiled.

"Of course we will."

All that ever held me back was always his family.

They were really like my family

and I really don't feel happy losing a family,

where I actually cherish, and appreciate.

I never wanted to lose them.

But, there's nothing I can do.

I can never be like going to their house and celebrate every events anymore.

Never going for road trips anymore.

Never be invited to any party anymore.

Yea, that's what that holding me back.

I don't want to lose them.

Still,

Everything follows.

I lost them, like forever.

Repeats

2011-10-28T01:49:00.001-07:00

Never thought this would happen again.

Never thought I would be the one who is going to end this.

Never thought, this is what my decision

and I also never thought,

I didn't tears a bit.

Things never gone well since I studied here

and that was already one year and a half

We were always so suffered

I mean,

Me, especially me

I suffered

And,

Things never gone well since you started your career.

You changed

and, I can't accept the fact.

You went so different ever since you worked.

We, went differently, too

You never thought of me anymore.

You never remember me.

You never remember what I said even you were just so near

Distance is not the problem.

We travelled 2 hours to meet each other whenever we can

Ahem, I mean, last time

but not now

You are not anymore I know the most

You are so strange to me right now

I never gonna understand you anymore.

I don't know what happened,

I tried to save

I tried so much to maintain everything that is needed

I know distance is hard

and that's why,

I've been called like a "kid" that always needed you to accompany.

This is the problem that's been in between us

You chose, you made your decision,

you chose your stupid job over me

and now, I made my own choice too,

I chose the one that could take care of me and really treat me like a lady.

I know,

It is my fault,

it's always my fault when I chose to let go

我是女孩。

我希望有人疼爱，有人包容，有人让我撒娇

有人能陪在我身边，有人喜欢带我去逛街，

有人乐意带我去世界各地也在所不辞

我是女孩，

我希望有人记得每天和我说晚安

有人记得我们过去的点滴

有人决不把承诺作儿戏。

我是女孩，

希望有人好好爱我，有人惦记我，在我郁闷大哭的时候把我的头按在胸膛里。

I am just so normal.

I am just so needed to be cared.

I am just so simple.

I am just a girl, who needs love.

I FAILED

2011-10-12T00:04:00.000-07:00

I am so going to remember this result FOREVER.

I seriously damaged inside when I saw this stupid sheet of result.

Never failed before

This is the first time in my lifetime on the first semester of my degree

I feel so ashame right now

But nothing's gonna change the fact that I failed

I was not going to accept the reality before I view my result from portal.

Acted like a total freak

Avoiding from UTAR website

Purpose : Hope for something good

Yes, you can say that I actually estimated failure

No, I still hope for the good side, maybe something that surprise me

But, in the end, I failed.

I stunned in front of my computer for 10mins ++

I barely move

Just keep my eyes on the computer screen

Crazily hoping for it to change

It doesn't

It remained the same during that 10mins

And it's clearly a fact that even how much I wouldn't want to know

What am I gonna do right now?

For the first time I've ever failed any subjects

I really don't know what I should do right now

Feels hurt deep down in my heart

Feels guilty, too.

I should have done better !

I shouldn't have taken this kind of result where no A+ appears

Wonder when will I actually realize I've been gone for so long

I've changed

No longer that secondary one

Craving for As

Instead, I am hoping for a C

I mean, what's wrong with me !

What have gone to my mind?

Have I gone insane?

The result is my future man

You don't really have much money to fail like this

You can't afford the failure

Never !

How is your mother going to pay an extra RM1600++ for you to repeat your mistake?

Think seriously,

You've been acted so richy since you've gone to uni

That's all?

Are you really a rich one?

Haiz

What am I gonna do?

*STUNNED AGAIN*

PLAN YOUR SCHEDULE !

YOU IDIOT !

Admire

2011-10-03T06:35:00.000-07:00

I always admire those gorgeous, intelligent and very powerful women

I mean girls, but it don't look powerful when I say powerful girls.

Girls are mean to be like gossip

Never a gossip woman huh?

Xiaxue is one of my admired idols

I always wanted to be like her

Travel over countries

Even social over the world

Know a lot of awesome people

She is fantastic

I really really hope I could be like her

Earning by only blogging

Then you can have flexible time to do whatever you want

and in the meantime you're earning US dollar.

I can't think of what kind of job can be like this if it is not by blogging

I am sucks

I can't even actually post up my pictures

Even don't have perfect camera to capture those perfect scene

I always wanted to buy a DSLR

I even wanted to be a photographer

Uhm, I mean a part time one

I have loads of mission to be done

Yet, I am stucked in a university

Cause I don't have money

Shortcut to be wealthy : Study degree and get master

Is it possible?

Still in question that has no solution.

How bad it is.

One thing of me is, lazy.

Being a famous, I mean a person that is favorable to anyone else

Is, you have to be really hardwork

Plus, gifted intelligent

I don't have gifted intelligent

And I am lazy

How to be a successful woman then?

Crap !

I was with a friend called Sue Lyn once awhile

She is the type like xiaxue

Sociable, interesting, favorable, knowledgeable

She often shares her experience to peoples around her

and peoples always find that interesting

This is what hard to achieve

I never gonna be favorable :(

How sad.

Sob

Somebody admire me pleaseee.

Twitter Beginner

2011-10-03T04:49:00.000-07:00

Just signed up an account in twitter

As what my friend Kalvyn introduced,

"Twitter is like you can have everything you want, it's super duper fun, go play go play !"

I think he means, you can post anything you want?

*Skeptical eyes*

HAHAs

I started to feel curious about what he said earlier

and went to create one

I am way too noob to explore something new

The functions, those posts, follows and etc.

But cannot be denied that twitter is easier than facebook

So it's actually better than you just going to start facebook

I think this is why twitter is popular

that they even promoted in Grey's Anatomy

where Dr.Bailey used twitter to post her surgeries.

Anyway, still discovering it's max function :D

HAPPY TWITTER-DISCOVER TO MYSELF :D

https://twitter.com/#!/ARIEL_YEN

My twitter account

Follow me :)

In Love With You Again

2011-02-25T06:19:00.000-08:00

I've been working so hard on studies recently.

I don't know why.

I've been feeling bored on my lappy?

I'm sure that you are guessing why the title of this post doesn't fit the body.

In fact,

Yes, I'm in love with my studies all over again.

Forgotten how much happiness I had everytime I studied all chapters.

It does make me so damn happy and relaxed after I forced myself to.

For this long time,

I've been watching movie in no time,

but then, none of these times make me really felt relaxed.

I guess I'm doing something right.

I should do something for myself.

I should live for myself.

Shouldn't just feeling sad for something that pulling us apart.

Forcing we both to do something to change the freaking true facts.

I don't know how come I acted like this.

I just want you to be with me.

You know what?

I'm facing a lot of things.

The only one that I hope to tell, to share, to discuss or maybe to throw it to,

is not with me, though.

It's been awhile I acted like a pessimist.

I felt lost without you.

Always thought why aren't you here?

Always thought you'll always here whenever I need you,

even though I don't need you.

Well, that's alright.

In this tug of war, you have your reason to be the winner.

Just feed our head with all gravels.

Perhaps, it'll let us both feel better.

What to do?

Eventually,

still the same, like normal, like an idiot.

Since I'm The Lucky Number One.

2011-02-19T07:53:00.001-08:00

Things went nervous when I knew I am going to be the first one give speech.

I was like...

S.H.I.T.

I started to blame how come my name starts with an A.

I am the 1st one on the list.

--Duh--

How how how?

I am super duper scared !

And so, I made 3 times of practice already.

Wish me luck on Monday.

@#$ I close my eyes, and I can see a better day @#$

%^& I close my eyes and pray %^&

Valentine's Babehs

2011-02-16T06:02:00.001-08:00

So unfortunately, all my pictures are with my dear.

Hmm. But I don't wana forget this precious moment.

Even a second.

10.2.2011

I came back from kampar.

Though I always will live at his house for one or 2 days first.

But this time, feel like guilty, so I went home first.

But then it was "Ti Kong Tua"

Hong's family is having some praying ceremony.

So, I followed.

And I know, it would be late.

Then, I bring my own clothes there too.

But *shhhhh no one knows I was purposely*.

Hahaha

Anyway, it comes to helping his mom this and that until the clock ticks to 12am.

Everybody is playing fireworks,

and so are we =)

Well,

let's back to the point.

This is when my dearest husband dragged me to his room

Oops, nothing happen, think straight please

What happened was, he opened his closet and take out a box.

Which was wrapped with beautiful wrappings,

pink in colour, cute bears and butterflies on it.

Aww.. I knew it..

He will remember.

But don't you think this is too much earlier?? I asked him.

I can't wait to see you smile already. That's what he told me while he was smiling.

How can I not to happy?

I quickly jumped to his bed, lying my chest on a pillow

and try to maintain the mysterious feel and thoughts.

What's inside the box, actually?

I shook the box, trying to guess depends on the sound from the box.

No sound.

Weight it with my hands trying to feel it's weight.

So light...

What could it be?

And then, ahhh..

I couldn't wait anymore.

So, I broke the mysterious scenario.

Started to tear the tapes one by one not to cause any damage on the wrappers.

Ta-Dah !!!

It's an anti-scratch, steel made, and a very light WATCH.

*I put it in pink, because my mood is pink! *

Oh gosh !

I like it so much, dear !

How much you spent?

Where did you get those money?

When did you buy it? How could I didn't notice?

Oh god oh god...

I have too many questions !

So, do you like it? He asked and touched my dry hair.

I nodded so happily and touched his lips with mine.

Dear, you're wonderful, I seriously in love with this watch

which, I didn't wear something with brands before.

Though this is not what famous one,

but I know, you must have chose for a long time

calculating your budgets, figuring my style and so on..

Thanks dear,

I really appreciate =)

14.2.11

This is what every couple is waiting for.

Hong came to my house early in the morning,

knocking an unanswered door.

Kept ringing an unanswered phone.

Gosh.

The pig is still in her dream !

Don't know why, a strange feeling just woke me up.

I jump-start myself and ran out to reach the door.

Dear was already walking in from my gate.

SO SO SO SORRY !

It's already 11++.

I'm on it I'm on it.

Give me 10mins to bath !

Shaahh Shuuhuu

!@#$%^&*()!@#$%^&*(!@#$%^&*

Finally done.

Let's go !

Which car you driving here?

Wira.

Haha, I told you your mom wouldn't let you drive Vios.

While I was looking for Wira,

dear was heading to a Vios.

Wei ~ Bluff me ah huh?

Blek @#$%

So, we went to INTI for herbalife.

Afterwards,

straight to Queens.

Nothing special actually,

just like most of the couples do.

We watched movie, we walked, we talked, we got massage on the rest and go Gintell seats

Capturing pictures.

And, dinner time !

So, dear, what's the plan next?

Uhm. What plan?

Huh??? Don't tell me you didn't plan anything for Valentines' dinner?!

Shit, you really didn't plan

I plan then.

But all romantic restaurants was fully-booked.

We have nowhere to go.

And then my dear kept saying sorry, stupidly ~

Eventually,

we still ended up in a Japanese restaurant at P.Tikus.

It's delicious though.

Delighted our mood back.

If not, hmm wuwu, Valentine's gotta be wasted.

Thought it was not special to outsiders,

and to me, I thought it wasn't,too, at first.

But in fact, it was.

We smiled, we laughed, we did stupid things.

We are happy

Dear, I'm sorry I've ever did something that hurt you.

I swear I will change. Sorry.

I love you, I always will.

This was last year Valentine's picture.

Update later after I got my pictures back

*winks*

Still Better to Be Alone

2011-02-08T23:15:00.000-08:00

Today, as usual, they didn't show up to any lectures.
I started to suspect are they what I want for?
A crazy gang is great sometimes, when they're really crazy.

Though, overdose of drugs could actually cause fatal in your future.

We know that, obviously.

SO,

It's actually we're not in the same path or what?

We seem different all the way.

Recently, you guys seemed like boycotting someone.

And this 'someone' seemed like having a quite good relationship with me

*this is what you guys thought only.
I was really afraid that you guys will also group me as one of his.

Whatever ...

I seriously understand that something really cannot be forced to be.

I don't know what to say cause you guys are not telling me what you thought too.

Maybe this was all my crazy thoughts.

But feelings sometimes are true.

I do feel some distance between us already.

Anyway.

Thanks for the craziest memory I'd ever had in UTAR.

I think I'd better concentrate on my studies =)

And Sue,
I really hoped we could be best friends.

Hmph.

What I can say is just that

"Princess and Pauper could never be friends"

Forcing myself to live in a royal family is kinda hard for me.

From today onwards,

I'd rather be myself,

living pauper, feeling well.

It's Been A Tension

2011-02-08T04:26:00.001-08:00

What does college life always meant to you?

I don't know what it is to you.

But to me, apparently it looks like you can do whatever you want.

And of course, without worries.

But it turns out that, I felt really stress out here.

Leaving alone doesn't mean freedom at all.

Although I am totally free, but I have no where to go out here in a village like hell.

So what's the point being free at home only?

I'm being sad lately,

except when there are several holidays going on

like CNY, Thaipusam, Nabi Muhammad's birthday.

Cause, I can fly back Penang to see my darling, that's where I belong to,

and where I found myself.

Things always get crossed.

Assignment period has come to my feet.

I may not enjoying this 5-days holidays well.

At least, I gotta prepare my public speaking speech.

It's completely a depressing issue to me.

I always hated to face stage fright I would give myself lots and lots o

f pressures until I burst out.

Haiz.

If and only if I have excellent English, I wouldn't have worrying all these.

It makes me look like an idiot jumping around this little public speaking

which,

I will often face it in the future even though in work.

What's the point of being nervous?

Everybody gets nervous all the time.

Those who has weaker English can also stand on the stage.

I realised, they are learning.

They are not ashame of what they have right now,

in fact,

they are proud of what they are learning right now.

At least, in the future, far far away from now,

they will be definitely better than now.

So. Add oil, girl.

You know,

there are many peoples waiting for you to achieve your goals.

and you know,

there is still somebody that really cares about you.

*Big smile to myself =D

It's all different now.

2010-11-06T06:51:00.000-07:00

For a long time, I didn't write anything here anymore.

Last time, I used to influenced by someone to keep me writing something to this boring space.
Now, it's all different.

How come I didn't blog anymore?

Because the person has left me so far away now.

She's no longer belong to me. I mean, we're not caring neither concern about each other anymore.

Sometimes, I do view her profile from facebook, try to catch up about her stories.

But, today, this time, DIFFERENT.

I saw her with her new friend, so sweet together, like we used to be before.

I feel like, some sort of jealous perhaps.

I feel hatred. uhm, a little only, i guess.

Perhaps, I just feel so far from you and I seriously miss those ancient times together with you. =(

I wanted to be part of your life, you know?

Smiling together in the little picture even though it is blurred or whatever.

But, it seems to be never anymore...

We have lesser and lesser thing to chat about ever since you tranferred. I think I've talk about this so many times before.

And now, after a year, we're finally, completely, overally, apart from each other.

You, finally move on your way, and me, to mine.

No more copy homeworks together, no more steamboat in a hotel, no more pillow talks and in fact, no more pictures smiling together.
It's a great loss, for me.

I guess, you have the same feel like mine, but you've seemed like taken well care about the situation change.

At first, I really thought nothing after I came to this whole sucks kampung.

I thought I could really stop my mind to think further.

And I know I should accept the reality that things change, people change, too.

But, Duh ! Sux!

I'll stop here. For all.

To my beloved laopo, for the last time I called.

First Presentation at UTAR

2010-08-06T07:55:00.000-07:00

It's been a very tough day for me during the previous week.

Finally, first sem coming to an end.

I can go back soon.

Though, it means that,

many presentation and assignment due date has come too.

Oh God.

How come days in uni are not like what I expected before?

So tiring, so unexpectable.

Well,

this is not the time for me to grumble about.

To have some momories about my first and silly presentation.

This was how I wore that day.

We did feel extremely nervous that day.

Cause we were the first group to present.

Oh No!

I didn't even seen anybody present before.

Presentation? like how?

And yet,

it was five days before our presentation, only we were noticed that we are the 1st group!

Definitely OMG!

How come?

Five days??

How are we going to make it through??

>.<

Just feel like wanna cry out loud.

Cause I have booked the bus ticket to go back penang.

Means, I left only 2 days for the slides and scripts!

Curious about how we did that?

We, means Ka Ying and me.

We burned midnight oil.

I think, till 3am.

If you know me well,

then you will know that, i'm not good at burning those oil.

Damn, those oil is torturing me okay?

So, this is what i'mma gonna do.

My mind popped out with an idea.

"Aiya, finish it by tomorrow lah. Or maybe, I sleep first, then later wake up earlier?"

Many many maybeS to console myself.

To make myself feel no guilt. Haha.

Are you thinking the right thing on me?

Lucky for a thousand times.

We did really great.

Mr Bala praised us, and me! haha

Thanks to my groupmate too.

Especially Ka Ying,

she made our slides more interesting with the ewww~ horrible video.

haha.

I damn like it, though.

See my belt? senget jor~

haha.......

Too nervous, I think.

Anyhow, gotta prepare for the next economy presentation again.

Best wishes for me, Ariel.

True Friends Ain't Gonna Leave You.

2010-07-16T22:31:00.000-07:00

Just after I left penang, and live in kampar,

my life had made a great changes after then.

I met new friends,

but none of them can really compared to my old friends.

Then now,

I realised, how much I love my old friends.

It was like, you met new things, but old things is still better.

Frankly,

I used to disagree my THESE fav friends will be my true friends,

except my laopo.

Sorry to say that girls.

Though, I thought that before

where it was a stupid thought
but things ain't gonna agree about it

even me, by now.

It was definitely a false thinking.

I always knew that,

peoples will grow up as they face more things.

just like the adults

and me, same thing,

been through lifes with apart, although this is just a beginning.

I realised much about the importance of my TRUE FRIENDS.

The moment I started to miss RINAKO.

I knew that,

I'm not hating her for what she had done.

That was just a stupid claim by me, Ariel Ong.

which was childish.

But then, she is still a very kind person if we exclude the bad ones.

hahaha

at least, she wont count on everything,

especially MONEY.

Friends that related with MONEY isn't true friends at all.

This is why I came back.

I came back for 2 days for a meet up with THEM.

We went to queens for a meet up.

But I kinda disagree everytime we hang up we must have a movie.

Coz.

It just used up times to talk about

I mean, to communicate.

Though,

My little friends still like to do so.

So,

What ever lah.

Hey ching!

I ain't forget about you ok?

haha.

I'm sure you will be sad-ing when u read this.

feels like you're not included right?

BUT

no worries.

You're not in the picture.

but you are in my heart.

Remember this. Okay babe?

:Love: you~

First Post @ UTAR

2010-06-16T06:15:00.000-07:00

It's been 3 weeks staying at utar.

I miss home, i always do.

Whenever I want to go home, there always been another thought.

It tells me, no.. you have to think about the expenses.

And, the most terrible is, you have to travel on a bus that has to use up 4 hours to reach your hometown.

Hmm.. staying here, it's like, i'm totally alone.

Except my laptop.

But times passed like flying away.

After school, after bath, the day is going to be the night.

I don't know whether is it a good one or bad one.

Today, imma gonna talk about friends.

I don't really trust in friends anymore, because of some.. *ahem* incident.

Anyway, I'm still trying to fix up everything.

By now, I have 2 close friends.

It's not something closed like I used to have.

But better than strange from everybody at the starting point.

By knowing a few of them, the colours of my life appears.

I'm not anymore going home after school with my laptop and then the next day school again.

I will just die in my room if I continue like this.

haha..

Let me introduce.

This is Cher Lynn.

She is a very cute, and kind-hearted girl.

I have long time lost this kind of girl, a girl that will always say, 'sorry'

haha..I will just smile whenever I think of her any expression.

You can just easily tell her,

"hey, don't go any nearer to that place, there is a bom!"

she will just give me a look like, "HUH?? where?? what happen? faster call the police!"

haha..Can you imagine what kind of girl is she?

She is absolutely CUTE!

At least... she wont count on something to make friend with you

she is not like the others...

Then, this is another of my friend, Michelle.

She looks fierce, i mean, strict.

Maybe that's because of she is kind of, lady like type..

She talks softly, walk slowly, act quietly.

She is not like Cher Lynn.

You tell her there is a bom, she will just walk away, and not going to have a peep on that place.

Haha..Intersting, though.

There, my school life.

Hope that there will be more for me to blog.

Fishes Party

2010-04-07T08:33:00.000-07:00

Guess what?
Today was a Fish Party.
Which includes,
a mermaid,
a golden fish,
and,
a sardin fish.

Which actually are,
me, jing, and yu ding.

Long time didn't hang out within us already.
It was such a wonderful day.
I drove to queens by myself,
with just only my feeling to the road.
But then, congrats to myself.
I arrived in front queens safely without any scratches!

God bless me!
ha ha!
and then, poor sardin.
No buses waiting for her.
She missed 8 busesleh.
How pity she is...
The worst is, i don't know where her house located
So, can't go and fetch her.

Anyway, she arrived before 2pm.
After having meal at Chopper Board,
We then went to movie.
@ The Future X Cops @
Quite lame lor.
Ha ha

The storyline is not bad.
But the actors are like too mismatch to the movie, i think.

Soon,
The movie ends.
Golden fish was then running out of time.
She went back.
Though,
I went to have a little shop with Sardin.
But we had empty bags on our hands.

Again,
We left, too.

Hope that we can have another fish party again ya!
Happy to meet ya guys so so so muchy~

Confused

2010-03-31T23:10:00.000-07:00

Recently, I am concerning about my life after this.
Can I make it?
Living by myself out there alone?

Well,
That's not the largest problem yet.
Cause, money is always the problem
So, guess why I am money face?
To save my future, man!
Trying to apply for scholarships everywhere
But, i was too late.
I missed both huge scholarships supplier.
Who asked me to be so lazy?
hmph..
I lost The Star Education and Bank Negara Malaysia's scholarships,
which I could actually get it so easily.

Though, I will be optimistic.
I'm trying for the others.
But, holy shit!
There are no others left!

Only, Hong Leong Bank.
the chances is even lesser.
cause i'm not the account holder of this bank.

Then,
I get to feel so hopeless.
I wish to study at Nottingham,
but none of the supporters.
So, somehow,
I still have to go back to UTAR.

Though, UTAR isn't that bad.
But I don't have my exact course there.
I need Finance & Accounting.
But, Utar only offers either Finance or Accounting.

What am I going to do?
There are lots of pros and cons,
Which I hate to solve.

So, I live the problems alone,
and start to work.
Hoping to get more money for my own living cost.

And now!
I get a job that is rm80 per day.
For just 4 days.
haha

Well,
I won't have to work so tired anymore.
and, I even get more earnings than that rm4.50 per hour-job.
HAHA

Hurr-ay.

Hello, This is Ariel

2010-03-29T09:32:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone, especially yching, my candy ass
long time didn't see me blog-ing right?
What to say?
I have nothing to blog.
Everyday works, for the ancient time.
But now, i quit.
Cause, i wanted to enjoy life having fun everyday
being a worm at home, either.

Though,
That is really fun sitting at home
I only realized this, after i worked.
Everyday came back late at night,
Then the next day going back to the place.

If there are customerS
i would like to serve so much,
even though ended up with tired,
i would do for it, too.
But now, look what I have done working at Pacific Komtar?
Serving FLIES, only.
And, the salary is less.
RM4.50 per hour.
Haiz

I think that's the right thing ever for me to quit.
And now, i live like a WORM.
HAHAHAHA.

Well, seriously,
What I wanna announce is,
I am nearly going to be a MODEL.
But u know why can't?
Cause I doesn't live in KL!
Idiot.
That's all!

I am a AVATAR

2010-02-28T22:13:00.000-08:00

hahaha
do i look alike with Neytiri?
haha
i'm actually her god sister... whoo hoo

i love my world so much
u better never ever destroyed it!!

haha

ENO again

2010-01-02T01:21:00.000-08:00

Here comes to ENO hotel again
a place that i always think i can put myself into a gorgeous style
but somehow i'm still not in the age
so..this is my look
----->

i like this style
but on my heel part
it's kinda hard for me
haha cause,i havent used to the heels yet
christmas is coming soon
but then,this is a belated post..(2 weeks ago then)...
this is my brother
take a look at his hair?
it was my own haircut stle
i cut it for him
although he doesn't like it or appreciate
but i still feel so happy of the results haha

after some time-waiting behind the hotel
the buffet dinner is served..oops..not served..it was ready

[barbeque lambs,chicken and fishes were all in front of you,take all if you can!]

[DESSERTS-with various flavor and taste plus colour]

[SASHIMI-my favorite,but then there were too much until it filled in my stomach and burst]
[noob..]

[roasted turki and long sausagewith barbequed lamb]

gotta leave some space for the desserts right?
though,i couldn't eat much of these that time
it was full

[sago]

[chocolate]

[creamy cakes]

[WASHROOM-you know?girls like to capture here]

Lastly..happy BELATED x'mas~

Children Camp

2009-12-17T23:33:00.000-08:00

first day to the camp at penang chinese girl kindergarten.

i followed my mom to botanical garden for morning walk
but i just get to accompany her to walk for one round
cause,i don wanna get sweat when i reach the camp site.
so i sat beside playing psp
though,many mosquitoes bit me.
when i reached the kindergarten
carol was the first one to run over me,
the first sentence she talked isn't "hello,aunty"
she forgotten about my mom's exist
and directly said "i tell you a good news"
oh my god..haha
she is really steam lar

there were lots of kids by ages around 5yrs old til standard six
we were bored
so we sat aside talking about numb words
then,everyone of us wil have a name tag
but mine.............gosh!
ONG TZE KIAO???
hahaha they laughed,and so me too.gai.

then..lots of programmes hanging out
we were so shocked that there is still programme about going out to market to buy vege,chickens and so on
this is carol..first time has her in my blog

then,yee ching
not first time,but already long time

only four of us went to the camp
most handsome boy in my team,i think
cooking with much of his curiosity and courage
then,we...again...run away from mission and playing behind the places
thought that we were princess?
but the castle is too small man..haha
can't fit 3 princesses
here...boring faces,boring actions

mine..is the most ugliest action
see..
they played games,while we watched out only
cuz,we don wanna get wet and don wanna wet our clothes inside clothes..haha
this is another helper,she is friendly..
though,she looks unfriendly at all
haha
so,don't judge people when you don't know anything about him/her.

cute little girls
Arielle..girl on my right hand side has a same name with me
and she..kai han..the youngest in our team
she is damn cute..
play around the helper's hair
they are really cute..haha
guess why is she so shy?
cause i asked her to smile with her teeth
but she answered me that "i have no teeth"
man..so cute haha
nowadays,children are not anymore like us
they know how to care about their image haha
see her teeth?
haha
no teeth..
cute....
i think this boy will be very macho when he grows up
his voice..haha it's like he has changed matured but he is just 8 yrs old
naughty boy
she likes to shake..haha
i think she has the potential to be a dancer huh?
last pose of our performance
finally..they remembered the steps
and...we took the 2nd price
i was too touch and i cried so ugly,xiao d
this is our teacher..i think she understands teenagers' thought
good teacher too,i think.
and she prepared everything for the camp..that's why me n laopo nonid to worry about our responsibility..haha so good
nah..
this is my team......
except the one wearing white clothes
everything ends..
so quickly..haha
can go to movie d
woohoo...

Day After SPM

2009-12-17T22:46:00.001-08:00

Finally,day after spm comes..
though,we are all already in holiday mood
so i think the last subject already gone..
then,after taking back all our certificate
me,jing,fei,and rinako going to steph's house with jing's new car ,viva
she said viva save petrol..but actually it's not worth..rm 43000,just tiny

then.this wil be my look for that day
new cut in.ok lar..

at steph's house
have a little talk together while having some make over

then,this is the make over..
like a doll huh?
her lips is in white colour
i was so shock when i see her make over
but it was fantastic haha
see..i'm so fat.
jing is so thin
then.obviously i am fat.
we went to redbox
and we wore the same clothes,but we didn't plan to wear like this haha
so happy.
after that,hong joined us too
but i know he was damn boring cuz he didn't sing at all
sorry ya.
the day ends after we sang
only me and hong continued the day cause there was heavy downpour outside

Thank You Mummy

2009-12-07T03:43:00.001-08:00

hi there,ariel here in a very joyful + happy mood
why?
cause spm has ended like i dreamed so much
last paper doesn't mean anything to me
chinese~ yewww..
no A for me in this subject
i don't know why rinako will wish to get an A on this subject

so..i am about to have holidays d...
are you coming with me?haha
there,went out for shopping with my family which is only once or twice a YEAR
how valuable shpping trip is this..
haha
so i kept captured pictures,of course,nice pictures..
(*thanks to the good phone camera*)

[my mummy]
-driving us to somewhere else to have some fun
-is she pretty?i always think she is.

[this is my younger brother,named Lionel]
-he is kinda good,IF there is no COMPUTER in this world

then,met his friend at prangin mall..

oh ya..here is an announcement
prangin mall PARKSON GRAND is having real great sales now
things gone so cheap man..
holy..
you gotta find out how cheap it is
though,my mom gotta pay~
haha
see her pity face..oww..mom..sorry..
but actually,that's not for me..haha
it is a christmas gifts to friends and families

now...
this is mine..

it was a wonderful evening to me where i smiled and giggled all the way
my mom will then peek on me cause i was so abnormal
she said "whoa..rm30 can brings you happy for a long long day huh?"
haha that is it..
she continued "you're so easily satisfied"
isn't that good mum?
haha
i'm happy when i'm pretty..
everybody does,i'm sure.

it was like
hey guys..my name is ariel..pleased to meet ya! *-*

haha..happy day ends very quickly..
gotta be right home now..
see plastic bags on both of her hands?
that's a great shopping day
spending money is easy but earning money isn't easy at all

however,though it is an annual shopping
i still feel so appreciate and of course,

Thanks mum!!
Love you always and forever~yeah~

Stop Dreaming

2009-12-03T03:50:00.000-08:00

SPM is not ended yet!

how come "End Of SPM"?
haha...
so..still gotta pay some effort on it
"STOP DREAMING"

allah...i wana go for holidays d lar..
damn it!
okay..so today went to mcd near my house to study economics with rinako

but we talked so much haha
yet,i still get to finish 2 questions in4 hours..

walao eh..
i reli wasted so much time
haha

"i swear tomorrow i wont talk so much d"
"hng"
"slap me if i talk"

end of today..
still end up with *talk*
how come i became so chicky
hmm..what has changed me into this?
but do you think it's a good sign on me?
some said it's not suit to me...cause *i have pretty face,but chicken backside*
i ruined my image
haha
some said "be natural.."

so?
drop me a vote.
haha

End Of SPM

2009-12-02T07:14:00.000-08:00

it's already coming to an end..how you guys feel?
happy and excited right?
as i am,by now..

gotta go for shopping,go for travels
and so anxious to try something new after this
as what i have said in facebook
however,all those memories still in our mind
wish to have fun again

ask yourself,
how much u treasure this last year in secondary life?
did u capture everything?
i did..but i felt that these are not enough at all...

having lunch together~
having jokes together at anywhere anytime
those days past really so quickly
a couple of weeks ago..
i was posting about life before SPM
but now..
you see??
we are going to the end
although life is really fun after that..

but i gonna miss every moment in our secondary life
for example~

*by Tan Ee Ming*

[TAKE 1]

[TAKE 2]

*he woke up after i called him*
*haha how dare him do that while the teacher is in front*

Form 5 students will always be the most to bring problem
they dare to fight dare to speak
but they ain't to lose their memories
maybe they are trying to make more fun for memories?
hope that i can take more pictures..

by the way~
still 2 papers left

ADD OIL
and do yr last last best ya!
GAMBATEH !

may you guys remember me?

~@riel~

Last Before SPM

2009-11-02T18:17:00.001-08:00

on the starting of the day,i went to school for account tuition
and then,10something,dear come and fetch me..
at first,both of us was not in the mood
so,we quarreled a little,but then it was alright before 10minutes came.
haha
den dear sent me home for a bath and preparation while he just sitting in the living room
waiting and waiting for quite a long time..hehe
(you know lar..GIRL wat..)
haha anyway,he understood this long time ago
then,when i have done,he said wana bring me to somewhere i sure wil likey
we talked about this few days before
and he told me that the place is quite near to queens
so i feel ok lor
cuz follow the flow right?
then,just kept talking while sitting behind him
after a few times,i wondered why he used the different road to queens?
i didn't ask,maybe he wana go and cut his hair?that's what he told me..
BUT
he drove until we were in the jetty!!
i was shocked!
"hey,why are we here?we are suppose to go to queens isn't it?why butterworth??!"
he just laughed..
oh my god..don't tel me the place you told me is at butterworth??
he smiled without replying..
hmm...surprise again??huh??bluekz...
so....

but then,it still happy for me..buz that's what i wish for
i mean lasttime..
he couldn't bring me,but he could
he couldn't love me,but he does and always.

so..everything goes quite well after i'm back from the "secret place"
haha
and i met laopo them
and we shop
after few times again
everybody was exhausted
and we found a place to sit and wait for the appearance of ching er
and i was like highing
handing the camera waiting for ching er to come cuz we wana capture her
everybody just look at us cuz we were weird..
see my laopo?
boring til.....

[stupid action 1]

then,his turn......

[stupid action 2]
-playing psp??hng....

now,my turn to make people stupid.....haha

[stupid action 3]
-still with her phone...haha

with xue ni now..

[stupid action 4]
-but she likes this..hahaha
-not stupid huh?

next..this is really stupid d...
see his expression??hahaha

[stupid action 5]

okay now we have come to the night party,
at first,nothing to do
so i was with hong playing that sound system in the room

peoples mistaken us in the room
but anyhow,wat can we do in a short time huH??
hahaha silly thoughts,
then,having some pics with friends

after waiting for the girls preparations
we finally get to visit the party compound
many food huH?
i was starving~man

while we were just started our dinner...here comes the rain water into our plate
haiz..
so hungry d ler..
stil rain?
then we went inside
but it was not bad,still got fan above our heads
then alcohol is served
see him mixing up "JAZ" with "CAMPAIGN"
allah..
then i just drank 2 cups or more
maybe it was not tasty at all
and hong kept buzzing me haha
he cant drink cuz he gotta send me home later..
what a sweet one..haha

then,everybody started to say i was drunk
cuz i kept laughing
but i was not drunk at all
then hong said "will the drunker says themselves drunk"?
okay lor~~
haha
i am now believe in it..i was really drunk haha
see my steamy expression..walao..
then this one will be more terrible
i was like a kid beside my mom..
holy smoke
i don't wana be a kid....haha
this is also a drunk piece of me
haiz
so silly~
haha
but anyway
i was so happy that night
until i need to go
can't stay overnight
so hong must be my driver to send me home although that was really late already
the road was so dark,so dark,so quite
and malays everywhere
hmm...
gotta go home quickly..haha

一生的毕业典礼

2009-10-30T05:00:00.000-07:00

毕业~

到底毕业给了你什么感觉?
开心呢?
难过?
还是不舍得?

而不舍得,又是在不舍得什么呢?
朋友?
学校?
还是曾经流逝的光阴?
曾经失去的故事?

每个人都有他自己的故事
而每个人也是每个人故事里的过客..

过了今天,
新的故事就会开始
同时
故事里的这一课即将结束

我们常常问朋友毕业过后会去哪里?
而朋友也会倒过来问回你
但大家只会说
不知道

迟些,我们便自然有答案了
有些朋友,出来打工,创世界
而有些,还必须经历教育之苦

但到底..哪一条路才是最好的?

曾经有位即将过世的先生对我说
"选择不是选最好的,而是选择适合自己的"
如今,这位先生过世了..
而这一句话
如今,却刻骨铭心
感谢他在临死前,赠送我这一句话

很多人真的不会选择
所以偶尔会做错决定
别说别人
说我自己
就常常在选择错的决定
后来,便是惹出大麻烦了

所以,这阶段..
才是我们刚刚学习成人的一步

毕业~

不代表永别
但里边的感情却会随之而变

谁知道以后的事?
谁知道十年后的我们
还会不会象今天那么快乐?那么自在?

可能现在的我们真的觉得生活很苦..
那是因为我们从来不知道什么才是真正的苦~
又有另一种说法说不一定...
但,人生就不过如此?
世上哪有绝对?

就算是好朋友,
总有一天
大家也会有不同的想法
随之
感情就淡了
因为我们不再主动去他家里找他..
反正想法都不一致了
不参在一起也无所谓

这就是毕业过后
必须面对的

很多人老了才明白
学校是多么的轻松..
不必愁这愁那
反正有什么事都好
有爸妈去扛~

成了人家的爸妈后才明白这道理
其实就已经很迟很迟了

因为过去就不会再回来
苦,就这样必须扛一辈子了

所以
不舍?
不舍什么?
岁数?时间?

答案自然在你心里

只要珍惜每一天
记录每天的过程,
就算是过客也好
不要忘记他

直到有一天你退休的时候
再把你记录的东西
在一棵大阴树下
一面一面的翻开来读~
看着前面小孩跑来跑去..

那时,
你脑袋又会想到什么呢?

"幸好我有记录每一天"?

-你是否想起自己的过去?

同时
你会清楚看到自己的改变吧?

所以今天的毕业典礼
应该成为你生活的一小部分..
记录了吗?
就算是小部分
也别忘了记录我曾经是你的过客噢~
朋友...

在此祝福你们前程光明~
记住
"不要最好的,而是适合自己的"

Nothing To Say But Just To Wish

2009-10-10T20:31:00.000-07:00

hmm...
i went to the car driving license centre yesterday
feels like i'm gonna be a big girl soon
two more months to go
i will be in brand new style

all the past,will forever be my past
all the future will not be expected
so i just gonna wish my life is full of fun

longtime didn't update my blog
cuz i am busy and,i was having nothing to post of
then,
finally,i had something to tell

with my boyfriend,
we went to family dinner yesterday
haha
i was really like admitted already
last night was his brother's wedding night,
but it was not yet a formal one

this kind of dinner also exist of me already,
that's why he said "you are not going anywhere anymore honey"
haha
although it sounds like tying me up
but somehow,i like it much than ever
everybody of his famile started to ask him
"when is you guys' wedding going to be ar"?
haha what a funny stuff..
makes me laugh non-stop

to make matters worse,
hong shook their hands by the entrance after the dinner ended
it was like a formal wedding,the bridegroom and the bride were standing outside thank you-ing everybody
haha

i was then thinking of
"when will this happen to me?"
when hong asked me
"will you marry me?" in his joking mode last night..

though,the night ended so quickly
i was bringing a very hard mood to say good bye
because
i have missed him so much since tuesday we met.

*gonna upload the photos soon*

The Show-Kenta

2009-09-30T04:21:00.000-07:00

Good MV,good song to make me feel relax
love it.

Sometimes,Something

2009-09-30T04:04:00.000-07:00

Sometimes,something changes so creepily without noticing around you
until we can't even manage to make a move
sometimes,it is benefit to you but sometimes it will be harmful
sometimes,we thought that we hate
but,after sometimes again,we just simply realise that what we hate was just a fool or a joke

something very unexpected happened to me just while ago,
did it happen to you?

this was the first time i get to go through this kind of stuff..
everybody knows about my cruel "post" right? (back-biting)
anyhow,i'm here to say sorry..
even though i knew it was a wrong one,but i still made it
that's what my mistake,sometimes.

but now,it was the past to me and to the person
something really unexpected,
i'm still friend of hers

first time did this without losing a friend
not going to do something pretending,
frankly,she is just so generous...
thought that we could have difficult situation after the post
but she get to put it down.
she accepted?or she will remember the evil of mine forever?

i really wish that she could accept and look into herself
it may be a help to her too

that's why i said,sometimes,something we judged doesn't make any sense
but,it did happened,
everything came to an end,
we are still friend

thank god.

Countdown

2009-09-26T18:45:00.000-07:00

It's going to be hard days after today..
one more month to go
i'm sure that everybody is nervous to yr homeworks,revisons..and so on..
right?
by the way,me too
i'm one of us..
spm just driving me crazy
all those quarrels with my mummy also because spm

anyway
nightmare has begun
i mean to me,it has just begun from today onwards
i have made up my mind
i'mma gonna make something responsible to myself
not to act like a child anymore,seriously

remind me,in case i forgotten~
haha you know lar...
i'm just a "kid"
haha

however,
nightmare means

1.switch off your handphones
2.stop blogging
3.stop facebook (it's actually no computer allowed)
4.no dating (at least,he is allowed to accompany me once a week,but just study)
5.no movies

sir/madam,
do you think i can make it?

is my determination still as strong as last time that i used to be?
c'mon
TRUST YOURSELF

emm...
i think i can make it (shaking..)

*whee whit*
that's what hong make me laugh so much
okay now,
hong got a big deal with me
he said if i am good in results,
i will be having secret prizes?cash?or delicious food?
haha
what do you think i will choose?

-

-

-

-

-

i chose through lucky draw..
hahaha

happy to have him..
first time people tell me i can have prizes if i have good results
it's really the first time
my parents didn't do this to me before
cause they thought i am matured enough to gain my own future
but somehow,i still need that..hehe

so,hong make me feel that i needed the prizes so much
haha
it is actually a good power for me to fight for PRIZES and your PROPERTY
hahahaha
you promised..i can have your property...

thanks dear,i love you..*big kisses for you*

thanks for reading my post
all the best to you guys ya..
muakxx....

一段感情是需要两个人来维持的

2009-09-20T00:02:00.000-07:00

不断的去争取
不断的去挽回
却一次又一次的失望了
说过要放弃
可是,我怎么放不下手?
你怎会慢慢成为我心里重要的人物?

曾经向你埋怨过
但你没有给我回复
你连看我都没有

以为真的就这样失去你了
可是每次的这个时候
你晚上都会拨电给我
然后
骂我怎么会乱乱想?
其实,我还真的很喜欢你这样骂我

至少我以为的
还不是个事实

你说
你很疼我
所以我每次都会用这个来安慰自己

结果你让我感觉的
不是如此

你的关心,我看不到
为什么不让我看到呢?

我们非要为了他搞到这样吗??

我曾经说过,
我们能不能回到从前?

我想念
从前很疼我的你~

Unexpected

2009-09-17T06:58:00.000-07:00

Many things had happened for the past few days..
many things that happened was unexpected
like tomorrow..it will be an extra holiday
although it does release my little pressure..
but side pressure is still here
i have lost somebody because of somebody
how can i make decision where both of them are also important to me?
why do i have to make this type of decision every time huh?
am i deserve to it?

i used to swear to myself that don't choose anybody when it comes to a choose
but then,the pain..
returned to me yesterday
i just get to know
i'm still like the past
everything comes out from my lips still cannot be done
how useless i am

done nothing but with a thought only~ haiz

Shao Lim 2009 Farewell

2009-08-28T23:38:00.000-07:00

okay..here we go..
finally it's my FAREWELL
glad to involve
cuz i'm the one who is going to leave the school!
oh God..
i am going to graduate!
hahahahahahaha so so so happy man...

den this is the beginning of the function

she,our teacher..
late to farewell..whole association is waiting for her appearance
and that is 11++am already..
it was supposed to begin at 10.30am..
what a V.I.P man..
anyhow..
we still must RESPECT her right?

hehe

it is our members..
young little kids like we used to be huh?

together in this association for the whole five years in heng ee
best partner ever..

muh.muh.muh.

catering food..looks grand
but nothing inside
how about the cost?
we don't know..
haha
it's free for us..

our trainer..

Form 6 AJK
but so funny..
always play around together with us..
haha
not mature enough huh?
haha

i didn't expect that Gary will take up his camera and took a shot of us by himself
haha
i mean "自拍"
haha
he is kinda milky white..

vice president.
same like me.
we cooperate well.

secretary.
good one.
handle two association's secretary pose.
what the....

there,president and both vice president together
good one too.

little one.
she is just form 2
going to suffer for years some more
bye bye..
heeeeeheee...

black guy..
keep on moving k?
i know you can do it much better.
don't make me disappointed k?
add oil !

BUH-BYE
FRIENDS
MEET Y'ALL IF WE HAVE THE CHANCE TO SIT TOGETHER AGAIN
we've been through much in those years right?
handling all those function
and we used to face everything together no matter it is a fail or succeed right?

so,
actually there are much of memories in Wushu Shao Lim
i'll never forget y'all
thanks for the new ajk too
we have a very fun farewell..

ps:to the new ajk..you guys can make it better,so why don't you guys put more effort on it?
it will success,we know you can....you can make our association much better than after
ALL HOPES ARE WITH Y'ALL
just don't give up
help each other out
ok?
WE WERE THE HISTORY
BUT
YOU ARE THE FUTURE.

wish you guys all the best.....GAMBATEH!

L.E.A.V.E. without R.E.G.R.E.T.

Yee Fei's 17th Birthday

2009-08-28T22:32:00.001-07:00

Happy birthday tiny gurl
although today is still not your big day yet
but you will feel so happy with the celebration right?
all of us were in black while you were the special one with white..hehe
okay..first,i was late..i'm sorry..
so i missed the earlier part that there were the other gang who celebrating birthday too

you always be the one who don't know we are capturing picture of you
see?
yr expression..haha

den..this one also..

and er was having here sweet time

me and laopo...
always do such things.
looks like lessbian huh?

hehe laopo
don't blame me for posting this ugly picture of you here
haha
cuz you like to be like this right?
wakakaka..

steam lar xue ni~haha

haha see your eye lashes
FAKE!
haha
it's going to drop man!

it was kinda funny when i saw this haha

laopo..
always having a dreaming-look
dono what were you doing..
having this kind of pose..haha

and so.
we have picture with the other gang
they looked so friendly
and we think,
it is because they are christian..
anyway,make more fren..

there
.
.
we were in black group

then,
i crop us out..
nice right?
haha
like this so much...

first picture of us of the day.

see?
my product..
that's what my serious look made out
haha er said so.
right?
like this so much too
haha

then,
we're out of the place of laughter
cuz "mighty queen" needed to watch her 2.30pm show.
anyhow,
we have photos all the way
until she was so irritating to us
haha
"如果没有电话和 camera,我们早就到ariel家了咯"
she was nagging so.

then.....
CELEBRATION ENDED
simple and easy.
like our birthday gurl.

When Daddy Says

2009-08-26T06:37:00.000-07:00

i'm sure that anyone that is close to me and knows me well could probably understand my family's situation..
about my dad..
he is concerned as a bad guy..bad daddy and so on (everybody knows)
i always feel so sad about his attitude
however,
today i'm here not to talk about his dirty stuff

just because one single sentence of him
i was touched..

"Ariel ar..撑多一下子,爸爸就快有钱了,然后你们就可以不用那么辛苦了"
from this sentence
i can really feel many things inside
including the L.O.V.E which i always thought there is no need to talk about love with him
and C.A.R.I.N.G......

i never felt this from him before
maybe got,but that was long long time ago
and i can't even remember

meanwhile,mom added
"yea..she is always worrying that we have no money for her to continue her studies"

this moment,
dad stared into my eyes
i felt what he felt inside
his eyes looked so tired which brought out his age
he is no longer a strong daddy as what he used to be lasttime

and me..
i turn aside..
tears dropped silently without pausing

why i felt so pain inside my heart?
why daddy you love us but you cant show everything out?
why you wana make something hurt to us?
why couldn't we have a happy family like the others do?

you used to be wealthy enough to handle everything
we used to be free from worries
but how come you have turned us into difficulties where you can choose not to?

Daddy,come back...

My Dearest Sister's 21st Birthday @ Tripz

2009-08-21T04:10:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday sis..

hehe finally you have came back again..but just for 4 days.
i was so willing to share more time with you,truly
it's just that too many resistant.
anyway..
first day you came back
16.08.09

we went to ama's house..
you are so nervous to ama's pet named jojo

see..you played around with it,running here and there
like a kid
you were willing to bring him home but you were rejected (how pity)
haha

then,we have some capture..
but this is the best..i think.

then i have to attend my damn tuition class.
but before that,we went to shop at tesco
and here..
a sor hai~
haha

our ama..
came to penang to celebrate your 21st birthday wor..
how grand it was
haha you are an adult now
so good~
but me?
still need five years to go..

then..our stupid idiot job again~
captured behind a stranger
haha rmb?haha

after that,you have preparation with ama n mama..
they were busy
and you too
haha i just managed to capture yr cute action
just like this
haha running like flying
haha
you always act so stupid but somehow it's cute and it is YOU

after busy this and that,
you friends have arrived and you,again..became nervous when the weather is not that good
haha
but i just can console you?
telling all lies about "wont rain eh la"
haha
and finally,you have your dress on~
how adorable is she~
she isn't 21st yet,right?haha

however,again
kids look..
going out to ball?
leaving home?haha
no way,you still need to come back

even though,you run like flying haha
(AGAIN)
haha how tambai~

finally,i think the God had touched by you poor little girl
there was no rain and you became so excited
haha invite you friends to the seat
run here and there
and I,your younger sister was in charged in capturing all those moments
cuz you didn't want to forget every second of it right?
haha
i can really felt the happiness in you that night.

anyway,
who is the one that you should appreciate the most?
of course our dearest MUMMY lar
see..she was on beautiful look too
but she sacrificed her time in return to make yr birthday party success and she just wanted to see you smile
how touch of it..right?
she is the most MIGHTY woman and mom to us,
forever and ever~

your friends..

but you looked so tiny in between haha
like a hamster in between a loaf of bread haha

i truly like all those pictures below..
everybody was happy~
haha
"longtime no see, fren" right?

Daddy came too
everybody came together for yr grand party~

mummy loves you

we love you

they love you too~

i was happy!
that's why i drank a tin of it.......haha
but i was drunk then..

happy party still needs an end..
you have gain so many present,happy leh..

but see?
all of us so envy leh
give us some of it lar...
you cannot be so selfish one~

is it because we wanted some of your present from you
so you became nervous,once again??
in love with the gigantic plastice bag?
haha
this is who you are...
FUNNY,NERVOUS,and HAPPY always

the next day
17.08.09

we went together to KO EN
haha
who is the one behind??
look so "gina" lar..haha

there was nothing fun besides joking around with all those idiot jokes haha
and..now..
17.08.09 11.59pm..
one more minute heading to your real birthday

but..there was an ACCIDENT
just like wat you said in your blog..haha
anyhow,
i feel so romantic in you both
he tried to make you surprise where he is not the type of romantic
how adorable are you both
there is still love inside you both
at least..
he is willing to be side of you,
right?hehe

it still looked delicious
"men kia"
haha

see?
how sweet..
aww..
accompany you till midnight wor..

but..you didn't look appreciate~
hiuz..
broken romantic~haha
jk lar

looked so stupid
but he loves you deep inside his heart

24 more hours,you are going back to JB
sien leh...
treasure the kiss o..haha

18.08.09

FINALLY
you are going home now~
see..how bu she de..
still wana capture this and that..
anyway..
there is still time for you to come home lar
the other side of my bed is always waiting for you to warm it
haha
come back whenever you feel tired ya
we will always be here~

ps:hey sis..i have used up 3 hours to complete this blog you know?sit until my buttock also become stone d haha..anyway

i'mma always wish you happy and willing to see you smile with shine~
be tough ya

LOVE YOU..

My Pretty's 17th Birthday

2009-08-15T08:57:00.000-07:00

hmm..longtime didn't update my blog in this late night d
just because today is my laopo's 17th birthday CELEBRATION

actually today really made me nervous and troublesome
cuz actually it was such a trouble for me to go qb..
but i still tried my best..
haha is it touch?i'm sure it will be if you know the process
bt i'm not going to tell..no point ma haha

okay..here comes our VIP
haha see her?pretty right?
always look so mature..
seriously..she is my loveliest laopo.......

nice with the background right?
it fits her..
wonderful
but except the "WE LOVE BRAS"
haha

those who really knows her
surely wont feel that she is mature
she is just tambai~
haha

here we are..
nice served
it really smell and taste good with it's hot vapour touching your tongue

and i was fooled by her!
TAN YEE CHING
but i really like the feel when you hugged me from behind haha
it was really just so surprise!
i never had a surprise from a FRIEND before
thanks yee ching..
i appreciate to have you as my fren..truly~

love to stick you too
hahahaha
and remember don't ever leave me behind again!
i mean in school...haha
rmb u forgotten me that day?
you just walked away with carol without calling me..
hng!
haha

there..we went for present halfway of the dinner with my high heels on
and it was damn PAINFUL!!
luckily i have them together kapsiaw with me
cuz i can sometimes forget the pain haha

how?nice?
love the light and our expression so much!
so lovely..so friendly..so happy...haha

here..birthday girl..
see her whole style?
looks so natural and sure pretty lor...

and of course..
today is also ah ki ko ko's 18the birthday
but unfortunately
she is not in malaysia
and who is the one that miss her so much?
turtle...
don't be sad k?
i can really feel the pain inside yr heart since i met u guys at the cinema
yr smile..looked so fake..
cuz it was the first time you come out with us but without ah ki
i know it is really hard for you
but c'mon
IF YOU THINK YOU CAN..THEN YOU CAN!

here ah ki ko ko
if you can ever see my blog..
read this..
the last paragraph
and this video.....
you will surely feel her~
how pity is she........

Finally The Day Has Come

2009-08-07T03:16:00.000-07:00

today is already 7th of August.

tomorrow,my sista is coming home
3 months before today,
i was thinking about today
cause it is AUGUST now !
hey man!
have you ever open up yr books and do your bloody revisions?

oh shit...NOT YET !!
what am i going to do?
homework?revisions?tuitions?

tell me how please
it is august
but i have done nothing
i'm still like an empty can !

holy shit!!
can't the time be paused for just a few seconds??
GOSH

i still don't know how to do add math,
i still didn't finish my homeworks
i still didn't do revision for accounts
and i can't even get confidence from all that

how??
haiz
tears flow..
worry..haiz
scared..
what if i can't score?
what if i have my dreams broken?
what if i have nothing back home?

i wouldn't have my head chopped down
but i would just kill myself instead

so..
from now onwards

IT'S TIME ARIEL..
tell yourself
what do you want in the future?
tell yourself

WORK HARDER BABE..

if you think you can,you can!!
right?

straighten up little girl
stiffen up your lips..
everybody is looking on you

Be Good, Girl.

To Whom I Care

2009-08-03T04:25:00.000-07:00

i'm not going to make you stay by my side anymore
cause,i found that we really really have long distance away
you are no longer my best best buddy
you are no longer staying beside me
though i have put much effort on it to make our relationship stay alive
but,it still gone~

longtime,you have not come to me
longtime,we have not talking about secrets
longtime,i don't know about you anymore

all those cares you sent to me..
i have no longer feel the cares inside
it is not useful to me anymore

finally i get to understand

no matter how much i wanna make you stay
it still get to drop,step by step
breaking my heart,day by day
until it is now left no more

to whom i care very much
i will cherish the memories we used to share together
i don't know whether i am still important to you or not
but
i will never forget you,a person that used to colour my life

no matter what happen in the future
you will always be in my mind

for the last,
i will let you go,to somewhere you belong to
cause,i don't wana make myself trouble
i don't wana make myself suffer as i always think about how am i going to make you stay?

but the only way to make you stay is

to keep you in the bottom of my heart..

goodbye,my dearest one
i never wana say this to you
but..
what will be, will be

GOOD LUCK
i love you

ps: don't ask me who is the one.

Finally Get Better

2009-08-01T19:49:00.000-07:00

whooooo..
finally the evil fever gone away from me

suffer~

keep eating all those yucky medicine
feels like gonna vomit out everything for every little cup of it
yucks
hate that so much!

before that..i really thought fever will be fun
hehe
cuz many ppl will care for me right?
hehe
but it's just that i'm too childish
being ill,cant go out,cant eat ho liao
all CANT CANT CANT !!
idiot.....-_-"'

anyway...
haha i'm recoverd now!!
whooray..

welcome back ARIEL
love the world the life so much and more than a billion cash..haha

wheeeee~

My Turn

2009-07-30T20:04:00.000-07:00

yesterday was such a shock to everyone that more than half of 5M1 students get fever

until teacher need to bring them down by herself

tat's not at all yet

many people still coughing inside the class and 3 more sicker not yet go home~

it was such an empty class yesterday

every teacher came in also ask what happen to our class

and they seemed like so afraid to get the same disease

as H1N1 is coming closer and closer to us

people said at sg ara..some said at air itam,where i lived.

haha

anyway

there's no fear at first

i was still joking around that all those sickers are bookworms

while troublemakers like us are healthy than them

but when it came to an end for the school lessons

i started to feel the ichyness in my throat

and soon

i coughed too

holly~

that's my turn now..

virus like this attacking me?

the colour is disgusting right?

except for this one

yucks~

it still looks ugly instead.

now,

i am suffering sore throat and fever and a little of flu~

will i be the one of them?

what if i am?

but HAHA

i still can blogging here means what?

anyway i have searched some of the swine flu's information

and i get to know that

i have 4 of the symtoms over 6.

SWINE FLU SYMPTOMS
1. High temperature, tiredness and lowered immunity
2. Headache, runny nose and sneezing
3. Sore throat
4. Shortness of breath
5. Loss of appetite, vomiting and diarrhoea
6. Aching muscles, limb and joint pain

and there..how it is spreaded in a fast speed

Flu viruses mutate over time causing small changes to proteins on their surface called antigens. If the immune system has met a particular strain of the virus before, it is likely to have some immunity; but if the antigens are new to the immune system, it will be weakened.

The influenza A virus can mutate in two different ways; antigenic drift, in which existing antigens are subtly altered, and antigenic shift, in which two or more strains combine. Antigenic drift causes slight flu mutations year on year, from which humans have partial, but not complete, immunity. By contrast, the new strain of H1N1 appears to have originated via antigenic shift in Mexican pigs

The name "swine flu" is a slight misnomer as it is believed pigs acted as a mixing pot for several flu strains, containing genetic material from pigs, birds and humans. Most humans have never been exposed to some of the antigens involved in the new strain of flu, giving it the potential to cause a pandemic.

The new virus has made the jump from pigs to humans and has demonstrated it can also pass from human to human. This is why it is demanding so much attention from health authorities. The virus passes from human to human like other types of flu, either through coughing, sneezing, or by touching infected surfaces, although little is known about how the virus acts on humans.

SO..STAY PRECAUTION WITH IT !

New Job

2009-07-13T04:52:00.000-07:00

hmm..this few days
i was really covered up myself with those questions about
"what am i going to do after form 5?"

i wanted to have jobs like :

a) financial planner
b) model
c) photographer
d) business
e) accountant

recently,it means,today :
i want to be a economical investment??
haha
how stupid i am

but~~
i do really have no direction~
so...how??
i am still so worry about these

i want to have great large pocket with dollars!!

To My Dearest Laopo

2009-07-11T09:12:00.000-07:00

tonight is just like that night you left me alone in heng ee
it was a sudden when you told me you are going to transfer
although i'm not really alone
but i have lost you
i can't really accept the reality
do you remember?
how sad was i ~

tonight,i cried so loudly in my dark and quite room, again.
just like that night..
i cried along the journey to my house
the moment you hug me
the moment you looked into my eyes
the moment you said good bye to me~

my nose started to be sour
my tears started to flow,along my both chicks
it just cant be paused
just as my voice~i shouted~
in my car,until i reached my house
it still remained.

the expression of yours is still in my mind,until today.
when my car drove away
you kept staring at me,just as me too.
i can feel the love inside
i can feel how much we felt inside
i can even feel that how much you are going to miss me

laopo,me too..i miss you so much

i remembered that night,i had my eyes swelled so seriously.

that night,
i cried because i was worrying of a day like today will happen
tonight,
i cried because it happened

though,nowadays i'm still not joining you guys in every function
i realised that we have different mind on objects
we have different topics
that makes me feel so far away

haiz
it's damn sad that me and you are not sticking to each other anymore
this day had come finally~

it's useless for me to cry, to beg, to wish how much more

you have left me.
but somehow, i won't forget the memories we used to share together.

i love you laopo.

i love you

Penang Times Square Carnival

2009-07-10T04:22:00.000-07:00

yeah babe~
it's the carnival !
haha i'm sure all of us should be so excited right?
the new times square is going to be one more place for us to shop !

there are eating competition
which we interested in so much~
break dance
for the youngsters
treasure hunt?
i'm not sure
but hui zhen said so..
haha
i'm gonna take part in everything..
i mean..
use my eyes to watch~
except the eating one..

hahaha
see the times square building?
it's gorgeous..and even bombastic !
hahaand if you don't know or not sure the way the times square..
here is the map~

is all 4M3 2008 student going?
hehe it's gonna be a fun gathering

haha hope tat you guys will go ~
but you guys sure go~
haha

Idiotic FROG!

2009-07-08T00:22:00.000-07:00

today was such a bad day !
the damn idiot frog in my class who sit beside me had really raised my anger today !
damn one !
why do i need to sit there alone?
why do i need to have a partner like her ?!
many things happened this year..
i do really HATE her
but everybody thought she is my best friend
oh my goodness
it's gonna be ridiculous
if i ever have the chance to speak
i wouldn't want to sit beside her
this kind of frog may chop my head off if i didn't pretend to be her friend

in fact,
everybody knows that she didn't have friend
see??
that's her problem
that's her bloody character
i wonder why i can stand her for almost one year
i am just wishing the day to leave this class comes soon
cause..she is torturing me everyday !

ok..let me talk about what happen
and how is SHE ~

1__加油加火加酱油__

she is just like a flame stone !

everybody knows that !

when we were having lesson in class

she kept commenting (non-stop,you know?)

and poor ariel sitting beside her listening to her nag everyday !

you know?her voice is like ~ yiew~

it is sharp and it has the ability to break my drum~

and today,i was asking teacher a question

"那它是年终年尾还是年头?"

teacher was answering me but

something beside keep "yiuyiuyiuyiu" haiz

but then she has high volume so teacher thought i didn't listen to her

just because she had interrupt

"元宵节嘛!你不知道元宵节是几月的咩?"

then teacher said "就是说咯,她没听我讲课一直在那边做功课!"

okok..i admit that i really didn't pay attention to wat teacher said

but now i am asking teacher not YOU IDIOT FROG ! BITCH !

teacher scold me nevermind..nonid you add in any words ok???!

when i was angrying her..she thought i angry teacher

ok~算了吧~

dowan argue with her like that also better

if not,i sure cant control and i will just slap her whity face hng!

stop acting tat you know me well..I WARN YOU !

2__假情假意__

i have released the bad words on a paper writing

"还要假情假意 ! 去死啦你 ! 逼我骂粗话 ! cibai lang ! 只会在人家背后插人一刀 ! 你平常是酱,可是你今天是在众人面前下我得脸 ! FUCK YOU !"

of course i didn't splash the words out from my lungs

i just chose to write on a piece of paper

anyhow,i'm still rational

3__"死伯"吵__

笑也大声过人

讲秘密也会大声 huiyor..behtong nia

整天在那边叽叽喳喳!

xue ni hor?huiyo both of us..wow really have the same idea

4__"死伯爱高"__

she always like to show off..

she like to use her super power throat and tell the whole class what she knows

and then laugh loudly !

if i didn't follow her to laugh

she will keep holding my arms and wants me to laugh together with her

but how can i refuse her?

holly shit~i'm the pitiest in the class

how many months to go?damn it !

other than THESE~

she really likes to interrupt no matter who is talking in front

i am wondering whether is she trying to attract everybody to look at her?

oh yucks!

i really hate that,why she wana do till like this?

i really don't understand although i have scratched my pity skin that protects my little brain

haiz..

and then if the one that speaks in front doesn't agree with her

she will turn to me then..

she wants me to agree with her~haiz~

agree lo agree lo 爽了没?

wow~ this is really the first time i keep back-biting a person in my clean blog!

see?that's wat she have done..

polluted my brain..mahai yi eh..

School concert

2009-07-05T04:06:00.000-07:00

it gotta be difficult days for all the interactors
although i don't know that did they try their best
but somehow,
we are being irritated by all the rules and plans
they kept on changing the plans and making all of us dizzy
later this,but later that
wat can we do with it?
when there was a situation
they blamed on us
cant they stand on our angle and think?
all those adults didn't use their brains properly
it's true for them to make the night perfect
but what kind of order did they give to us???
did they discuss together first?
they did not~
they are kinda----hugh! nothing can describe their planless brain! (!@#$%^&*+)
IDIOTIC PEOPLES!

frankly,
we did not do well that night
but how?
this was the most troublesome year
when there was a short circuit..
it just made us nervous

that night,
i was so disappointed
i don't know why i will feel so responsible
but i don't have the right to say anything
we were just like worms
no direction~

i think audrey will be sad too?
but she looked nothing..
in fact,we were worrying whether are we going to have the chance to in-charge once more?
but..interactors are having a result of dropping
anyway

it's the last year for us to duty in this sucks situation~

NO SALARY
NO GIFTS
NO AWARDS !!
but we get scolded !

what a damn work is this?????
HNG!!

School Friends

2009-06-27T08:09:00.001-07:00

this is it
i finally uploaded every picture of us
i would like to describe my 4M3 classmates 2008
maybe they look playful and irritating with different faces and different character
but they do enjoy playing
and in fact..
they are best buddy
whenever you have problems with you
they will try their best to help as much as they can
this is what people said
last class or maybe normal class may not have any genius
but they are helpful
they treasure friendship
and they have "bones air" (in chinese)

this is wat i can describe~simple and easy

we do have projects to work out together on that day
i didn't expect one day like this will happen
the whole class of us were being together under the hot Sun
burning our skin and all of us get sun burn
see the guys?

they have no "protection" on their healthy body~
they played as what their heart said
all of these will just made me feel that
life is full of FUN
why do we need to let go
when we have the chances to enjoy the world?

modelling poses?
but the pig with orange shirt would have shy face~
like he always do
AI GAO !
haha

then~black women~
see the scenery behind?
the beach looked clean
cause we have clean up
but actually it was our project
it looked like we were so hardwork?
but we used up 10 minutes for capturing the project photos
and the rest of the time for SUN-BATHING
i remembered i have sunburned
and so my friends~

she's kinda heavy..although she looks timid haha
you guys know who i meant right?
haha

we just like SOR HAI~
but anyhow..happy right?
last year,a few months to go.

there~ 4M3 2008 are back in 2009
i really like the feel and i really love the class in 2008

two sentences to describe
"FULL OF FUN"
&
"FULL OF LAUGHTER"

so..
treasure 'em from now onwards

First Post

2009-06-26T04:43:00.000-07:00

you know?

i'm really happy to have a gang of best friends

we always mix around in those days

whenever we have chance,

our "camp" or either "special tuition" will be held

anyhow,we are not that bad actually

we are just sooo playful~

is there any law that we cannot be playful and live freely?

no right?but parents are the largest problem of all

and economic problem followed by

take a look of our days together

even though it's just a few hours before tuitiom
we can feel the friendship~the love between us~

did you?

see?playing a fool~

then,

having same clothes

(still remember we used to use syilling for buying these "syilling" clothes?haha)

makes you feel "YUCKS" right?

there she is..

my loveliest tambai laopo~

and here

er er and turtle rinako

here again

girl on the left hand side~

although she doesn't mix up with us

but i believe it is only for this year right?

(our important year)

how about this??

do you see anything??haha

it's kinda yucks~

but how?

we are best friends

best friends don leave each other behind

best friend always here with you

but in fact!

we are not only best friends~

we are lovers~

haha

(maybe i would have missed out some of our members but it is just because i didn't have the clearest picture to post,sorry for that ya)

i mean yee fei and audrey actually

dont be angry ok?

hehe